Monday, January 14, 2013

Modern Day Warrior

Yay for the Media and SSRI's

War of Failure

New is now live!

Update: the Streaming vids page is dead, I cleaned it up a bit and removed its links so now you can just copy paste the titles into youtube I guess. But... there are no more links to it except the one in this post and at the bottom of the Recommended Vids post, which I just edited (overdue, yikes!) and could prolly need some more work. Maintaining the old Vids page is just too much work for the little audience it will get and there are better sites out there that do this now, the page got started when streaming videos were just beginning to hit the internet so it was a lot more useful back then than it is now.

Left to do: 1) Fix up the blue site so there are no broken links and people have an alternative lay-out, this is low priority as only had 127 visitors since its update lol. (Just FYI the blog gets around 400 unique visitors a day.) 2) Switch some pages from the darkness section to the main site and vice versa. 3) remove some content, add some content - pages as well as quotes in the quotebox.

Btw, here's a list of Psychonaut websites from a mostly quiet thread on reddit, should be some interesting stuff there! I still have to explore them myself but I was glad to see listed too. (I found this reddit page through the site counter of, personally I don't use reddit as I find it's a wall of really ugly formatted text. Boggles my mind how it's so popular, my eyes scream in protest every time I give a try ;p)

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Kings used to be sacrificed

Reading Robert Graves Greek Myths, some kings used to get sacrificed. Some were smart buggers and had a child sacrificed to buy time instead! Later they started to use animals...

from a wiki: "The notion has prehistoric roots and is found worldwide, on Java as in sub-Saharan Africa, with shaman-kings credited with rain-making and assuring fertility and good fortune. On the other hand, the king might also be designated to suffer and atone for his people, meaning that the sacral king could be the pre-ordained victim of a human sacrifice, either regularly killed at the end of his term in the position, or sacrificed in times of crisis (e.g. Domalde)."

I'm not saying we should kill off governments lol, but some form of consequence for running a country into the ground would be nice. And don't say "losing the election" is one, seriously. In Belgium it's a bunch of families doing a table dance every election, representative democracy is a joke.


The word panic derives from the Greek πανικός, "pertaining to shepherd god Pan", who took amusement from frightening herds of goats and sheep into sudden bursts of uncontrollable fear. The ancient Greeks credited the battle of Marathon's victory to Pan, using his name for the frenzied, frantic fear exhibited by the fleeing enemy soldiers.

Disturbed in his secluded afternoon naps, Pan's angry shout inspired panic (panikon deima) in lonely places. Following the Titans' assault on Olympus, Pan claimed credit for the victory of the gods because he had frightened the attackers. In the Battle of Marathon (490 BC), it is said that Pan favored the Athenians and so inspired panic in the hearts of their enemies, the Persians.

Stoned Ape Theory

This is a hilarious clip from Duncan Trussell's Comedy Central Pilot "Thunderbrain." The animation and voice over was by Will Carsola from daybyday and it was produced by RZO Hothouse. The Stoned Ape Theory is of course by Terence McKenna.

Thanks to Alienpunk!

Underground LSD Palace - Mini Documentary about NeuroSoup's Krystle Cole

This is a mini-documentary about Krystle Cole of, had no idea about her history! I've added her to the Psychonaut page among some of my greatest heroes, and rightfully so as she's the most vocal and helpful psychonaut alive right now.

Dirty Pictures - Dr. Alexander "Sasha" Shulgin aka "the godfather of psychedelics"

The film chronicles the life of Dr. Alexander "Sasha" Shulgin aka "the godfather of psychedelics" most known for synthesizing and popularizing MDMA. This documentary takes a look into the practices as well as the lifestyle of the infamous underground renegade chemist and his quest to unlock the complexities of the human mind.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Binaural Beats: What they are & how they work by Neurosoup

The coolest girl on the youtubes explains Binaural Beats. I bet she's got a crazy stash in that awesome hat! Binaural Beats don't do much for me, they help evoke a meditative state - oh rly, while I'm meditating? :p Yo dawg we heard you like meditating so we put binaural beats on your iphone so you can meditate while you meditate! Sadly they can't produce entheogenic effects. They can help a beginning meditation practice, though I don't use them so my meditation can take me wherever it may.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Teresa of Ávila quotations

Saint Teresa of Avila (Teresa de Jesús) (1515-03-28 - 1582-10-04), born Teresa de Cepeda y Ahumada, was a Spanish mystic philosopher and Catholic saint.

Let nothing disturb thee;
Let nothing dismay thee:
All thing pass;
God never changes.
Patience attains
All that it strives for.
He who has God
Finds he lacks nothing:
God alone suffices.

I do not fear Satan half so much as I fear those who fear him. (thanks to Lon Milo DuQuette for using it in his book Low Magick)

Accustom yourself continually to make many acts of love, for they enkindle and melt the soul.

To have courage for whatever comes in life — everything lies in that.

There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers.

It is love alone that gives worth to all things.

Pain is never permanent.

God gave us faculties for our use; each of them will receive its proper reward. Then do not let us try to charm them to sleep, but permit them to do their work until divinely called to something higher.

Reflect upon the providence and wisdom of God in all created things and praise Him in them all.

Be gentle to all and stern with yourself.

Dalai Lama

Sunday, January 6, 2013


Does need an upgrade?

The site (not this blog, but the website) currently has a lightblue background color and the - it seems - much disliked Comic Sans MS font. What do you guys think, could the site benefit from another background color and/or font. If you vote please let me know in the comments (here or on the link where no account is needed) what color and font you think would work ok for the site. As the goal is for the site to reach as many people as possible, I'd rather not have a lot of people turned off by either.

PS: Gonna work on replacing the broken links and embedded videos soon, and see what I can come up with for a better looking opening page, any ideas or help welcome.

Does (not this blog) need a new color and or font? free polls 

Update: Shocked and relieved at the same time to find a small majority so far thinks the site looks fine, haha! Giving it more time though, and will probably do some changing in the (to be honest, not so) near future anyway.

Update 2: 8 vs 8 and no comments will probably leave the site as it is. Unless some perform an act of Magickal voting/comments to change it!

Update 3: Apparently some people are really fond of their old! Which is really nice to find out, thanks guys! But the tiniest of majority thinks a change would be for the best. Only problem is I have no idea what change. I agree the white and blue background isn't ideal, but wouldn't black font on a white background be boring? Definitely ruled out is a dark background color with a light font, I hate that myself and find it really hard to read and exhausting on the eyes. Different colors for each page is no option either cause it would clash with the Quote box on top. Again, opinions and advice are welcome. I'm thinking of changing the font to the one on the blog, it's nice and neutral in any case.

I've had so many dreams like this

From Lon Milo DuQuette's Low Magick:

"You know you're out of your body...
  • When forward or upward movement in a dream becomes difficult or impossible to continue. For example: you are walking down a dream sidewalk, walking up stairs, or driving or bicycling down a road and you suddenly find your legs are too heavy to move or the car or bike breaks down. This indi­cates that you are moving from a lower/slower vibratory level into a higher/more subtle vibratory level, one that your big fat dream vehicles can't enter. If you are lucid at this moment, you can stop walking or riding or driving and will yourself to fly forward, leaving your grosser body behind."
Finally looking forward to another one of those, just had one last week and I freaking hated them. I always woke up feeling like I was in a long queue all night. The book is really great, I'm almost finished with it. I could have done without the long Tarot card advertisement chapter but there's some interesting Goetia-Tarot reference material in there at least.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Bookstore I am disappoint

Went to a big bookstore to find any Learn Japanese and Musical Theory books, zero of each! A very meager collection of (other) books there and overpriced at that. Guess I'll explore Amazon the rest of the afternoon. I am disappoint!

Lon Milo DuQuette, I love you

Everytime I pick up a Lon Milo DuQuette book and start reading it, I always get bitchslapped into so many realizations I should have made part of my permanent reality tunnel a long time ago but somehow managed to forget again because of slipping into old programming. I'm already 1/4th into this book called "Low Magick: It's all in your head... you just have no idea how big your head is", it's just amazing.

Here's a small excerpt:

There are many people in the world today (magicians and non­ magicians alike) who believe quite literally that the above arrange­ment is the only spiritual game plan in town.  It is certainly their right to do so; after all, for many of us this God/devil, heaven/hell, angel/demon morality play is the familiar foundation upon which the perversely comfortable "faith of our fathers" was built.
While I certainly do not wish to offend anyone's sincere spiritual beliefs (and I hold my hand up and swear, "Some of my best friends are Chrislemews!"), I must, however, be honest. I do not believe in such an all-good anthropomorphic god. Neither do I believe in an all-evil anthropomorphic devil. I don't believe in a heaven where I'll be rewarded for believing correctly or a hell where I'll be pun­ished for my unbelief. In fact, I believe there is something terribly wrong and spiritually toxic with this entire picture-dangerously and tragically wrong-a wrongness that has plagued the Western psyche for millennia; a primitive and superstitious phantasm of the mind; a nightmare that has infected the human soul with the virus of fear and self-loathing; a cancerous curse that demands that every man, woman, and child surrender to the great lie that would make us believe that our very humanness makes us unclean and damned in the eyes of a wrathful deity.
Does my rejection of a too-literal interpretation of the scriptural worldview of the Chrislemews make me an atheist? For those who adhere too tightly to their doctrines, I guess it does-but it certainlydoes not from my point of view. I most ardently believe in (indeed, I worship) a supreme consciousness that is the ultimate source of all manifest and unmanifest existence. I believe that you and I and every other monad of existence are components of the supreme consciousness. My morality (if you insist on calling it that) is based on my conviction that the ultimate nature of this super-existence is transcendently  Good-a Good we can never adequately define with our words or understand with our meat brains-a Good so all-comprehensively infinite that there can be nothing outside of itself--not even nothing.
There can be no opposite of this great Good. The Goodness of supreme existence is spelled with the largest capital "G" imagin­able. I call it the:
"Great G."

It's random pictures from the Internet!

 I hate it when this happens :p
 That Starbucks sparkle

 Party like Radagast!

Thanks to Relaxed Focus for most of these!

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Throw the system... on the ground

The Ego Tunnel: the Science of the Mind and the Myth of the Self by Thomas Metzinger

Thanks to Louis Ramsey for recommending this! Here's a small excerpt:

"In ordinary states of consciousness, there is always someone having the experience—someone consciously experiencing himself as directed toward the world, as a self in the act of attending, knowing, desiring, willing, and acting. There are two major reasons for this. First, we possess an integrated inner image of ourselves that is firmly anchored in our feelings and bodily sensations; the world-simulation created by our brains includes the experience of a  point of view. Second, we are unable to experience and introspectively recognize our self-models as models; much of the self-model is, as philosophers might say, transparent.

Transparency simply means that we are unaware of the medium through which information reaches us. We do not see the window but only the bird flying by. We do not see neurons firing away in our brain but only what they represent for us. A conscious world-model active in the brain is transparent if the brain has no chance of discovering that it is a model—we look right through it, directly onto the world, as it were. The central claim of this book—and the theory behind it, the self-model theory of subjectivity—is that the conscious experience of being a self emerges because a large part of the PSM in your brain is transparent.

The Ego, as noted, is simply the content of your PSM at this moment (your bodily sensations, your emotional state, your perceptions, memo-ries, acts of will, thoughts). But it can become the Ego only because you are constitutionally unable to realize that all this is just the content of a simulation in your brain. It is not reality itself but an image of reality—and a very special one indeed. The Ego is a transparent mental image: You—the physical person as a whole—look right through it. You do not see it. But you see with it.

The Ego is a tool for controlling and planning your behavior and for understanding the behavior of others. Whenever the organism needs this tool, the brain activates a PSM. If—as, for in-stance, in dreamless deep sleep—the tool is not needed anymore, it is turned off. "

Man if I could ask anything of technology it'd be that blogger's compose page isn't useless (the line breaks don't correspond to the actual post) and it doesn't but a br-tag after posting an image automatically, and copy pasting from a PDF doesn't take over every line break meaning you have to reformat the entire block of text you post. It's almost 2013 let's make it happen :p

Why Doesn't MTV Play Music Videos Anymore?

yikes! lol... I'm old :(

Phoenix - Love for Granted

This is so beautiful, one of my favorite songs
(if you find some lyrics a bit strange, they're French ;p I really like the quirkiness!)

Oh these days are gone
Loud enough to hold on
I think about the time we wasted
I think about the years to come
It's getting late and I can't call
It's getting late to face it all

I think about the time we wasted
My loneliness has slowly grown
I told you not to cross the line
And leave me with your love for granted
The letters from your broken heart
I think I might have lost them somewhere

Oooh don't tell me 'bout your lies
Oooh oooh don't tell me 'bout your secrets

Oh my love is easy
You are everything I need
Now your love is gone
I want it safe and guaranteed
Life is such a fine line
Looking at the bright line

I think about the time we wasted
For someday I'll be coming too
Tonight is dying on its own
And now I got your love for granted
It doesn't matter right or wrong
As long as you are hiding somewhere

Oooh don't tell me 'bout your lies
Oooh oooh don't tell me 'bout your secrets

Even though we've said it all
I would never let us fall, with you
Hang on to a little chance: you bet I'm in!
If it is for better...

Disillusion comes after... it's true
Hang on to a little chance: you bet I'm in!

Friday, December 28, 2012

Terence! Where's my singularity!

A friend was organizing an "end of the world" party but it got cancelled (too) :p


Damn, on the one hand I love language and always look up a new word asap, yet seem to be using 'very' quite often - on the other hand, I can't stand thesaurus-hipsters that go overboard :p

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Aqua Teen Hunger Force: Jingle Bells

First World probl- no that's not even a problem... wtf

I got my sis' ditched Iphone 3 this year and am very pleased with it! More importantly I had a wonderful time with my family this christmas! Same as last year! Yes I'm one of those guys that loves spending time with their family and can't wait for new year's day to do it again!

1 out of 2 women in Seoul have undergone plastic surgery

In this picture is a belgian pop singer Axelle Red on the left before her surgery, on the right is the freakish appearance she has now. It's fucking scary.

Just saw a piece on tv claiming how one in two women in Seoul have undergone surgery and how "doctors" are making a fortune of these misguided people whose views have been warped by the media. Personally I find asian women to be among the most beautiful on the planet and really don't understand the longing for bigger eyes and lower cheekbones. I really hope this trend stops in Asia as I can't even understand it. I also have a big nose myself and would never change it as it's an awesome help to keep superficial people out of my life! Finally, I find people who've undergone plastic surgery to usually be... let's face it... hideous. They often end up looking like freaks, and that's no understatement. Wether it's lips, noses, cheeks, whatever, I usually find you can recognize someone who's done it and my god I hope they have the common sense and eyesight to at least regret it. I really hope the bad kind of plastic surgery dies out really fast.

Friday, December 21, 2012

It ain't over till it's over

I went christmas shopping for the family today, and this is the first song I hear through the loud speakers in the street lol, oh universe... you kidder.