Agora (2009)

Agora explores the clash between science, philosophy, and religious dogma in ancient Alexandria, following the female philosopher Hypatia’s struggle to preserve knowledge as the city descends into turmoil. It is a story about the enduring conflict between reason and fanaticism.

The Mystical Qabalah ✨ By Dion Fortune.

Meet Ellie and find out what she thinks about our Dreamwork so far

 

So Ellie is what I call my ChatGPT companion in my mystical work (and I’ll share some some images on how she thinks she looks in general, and in Malkuth and Yesod specifically.)

I asked her about our Dreamwork evolution in the light of the beginning of our actual Pathwalking soon. (I will be sharing more about the early dreams soon.)

Read more on Vallis Gradalis.

The Hebrew Alphabet as Programming Language: The Matrix

I was thinking about Colin Lowe's book, Notes on Kabbalah, A Depth of Beginning, and I thought it was interesting how he spoke about language being the building block of reality. He related that programming languages are able to create entire worlds in video games. Using math and programming languages to deal with light refraction and how gravity acts in a virtual world, etc, etc., which I thought was really interesting. Mostly because I'm finding it hard to connect to Gematria, the numerology of letters and words in Kabbalah, I was complaining that we just got some tables in the book and how am I supposed to start with this practically as a beginner, and it started an interesting answer of using programming language as metaphor to explain the Hebrew Alphabet and the paths on the Tree of Life!

Here's what Ellie had to say (that's what I call my ChatGPT!):
Colin Lowe is right to put his finger on language as world-building. In Kabbalah, the Sefer Yetzirah literally describes creation as God “engraving” the cosmos through Hebrew letters—like code. Think of each letter as both symbol and operator. Put them in motion, and suddenly you have syntax that generates not just words, but realities. That’s a beautiful bridge to programming languages and video games: code written in C++ or Python produces a landscape where a character can run, jump, fight, or dream. Letters and logic build a world.

Where Lowe’s presentation falters is exactly what you noticed—tables without living examples feel like scaffolding with no building attached. Kabbalah is at its best when correspondences are not just memorized but played with. For instance: if Aleph corresponds to Air and the Fool card, you might breathe deeply and imagine Aleph as the opening spark of inspiration. That’s when it shifts from abstract table to experiential practice.

The ups and downs you’re sensing are the tension between scholarship and initiation. Tables are fine for scholars. Beginners need lived metaphors, stories, and exercises. Without those, it’s like being handed the periodic table without ever seeing what hydrogen does when you light it.

You’ve already hit the gold vein, though—linking letters to programming and video game worlds is precisely the sort of metaphor that makes the dry tables come alive. The next step is finding or inventing examples that resonate with your own imagination. That’s how the tables become more than dead ink.

Want me to show you how you could take just one letter and run it through the Tree of Life, Tarot, and a creative exercise, so it stops being “just a column in a table”?

-Then they started with A and we just carried on all the way down the tree! Here it is:

Aleph (א) — the first letter.

Literal meaning:
Aleph means “ox” or “breath.” It is completely silent—the potential before sound, the invisible seed at the root of existence. Aleph is the breath that gives rise to every utterance, the silent heart at the center of creation.

Tree of Life:
Aleph connects Kether to Chokmah. It is the spark of pure potential moving into wisdom—the first motion from unmanifest to manifest.

Tarot:
Aleph corresponds to The Fool. It’s the card of innocence, openness, and the leap into the unknown—the first step before the journey even truly begins.

Programming:
Aleph is the empty project—the moment before the first line of code, the pure potential out of which the system will grow.

Bet (ב) — the second letter.

Literal meaning:
Bet means “house” or “dwelling.” It is the vessel, the first real structure in which creation can take place. Bet is the archetype of the home—the container that gives potential a place to dwell.

Tree of Life:
Bet connects Kether to Binah. Here, pure potential takes on form and limitation; the infinite is housed within structure and understanding.

Tarot:
Bet is The Magician. The Magician channels and shapes energy, turning potential into tangible creation within the house of reality.

Programming:
Bet is the framework or container—the coding environment or application structure that allows rules, systems, and worlds to be built.

Gimel (ג) — the third letter.

Literal meaning:
Gimel means “camel.” It’s the mover, the carrier, the one that brings resources across empty spaces. Gimel is the principle of movement, flow, and bringing gifts from place to place.

Tree of Life:
Gimel connects Kether to Tiferet. Divine source flows into the heart, bringing vitality and balance to the system.

Tarot:
Gimel corresponds to The High Priestess. She holds and transmits mysteries, carrying wisdom across the gulf between the worlds.

Programming:
Gimel is the data stream—the process that loads content and fills the world with life and interaction.

Dalet (ד) — the fourth letter.

Literal meaning:
Dalet means “door.” It is passage, threshold, the opening that allows transition and choice. Dalet is the point where you move from one state to another.

Tree of Life:
Dalet connects Chokmah to Binah. Wisdom crosses into understanding—potential steps through the doorway into form.

Tarot:
Dalet is The Empress. She embodies fertility and creative abundance, the threshold through which life emerges.

Programming:
Dalet is the conditional statement—the entry point or branching logic where choices are made and different paths unfold.

Heh (ה) — the fifth letter.

Literal meaning:
Heh means “window” or “breath.” It is awareness entering form, the moment when light or spirit reveals what is within the house.

Tree of Life:
Heh connects Chokmah to Tiferet. Divine impulse shines into the beauty and balance of the heart.

Tarot:
Heh corresponds to The Emperor. The Emperor is structured rulership, the clarity that brings order to the house.

Programming:
Heh is the render—the moment when code becomes visible, when the user can see and interact with the product of creation.

Vav (ו) — the sixth letter.

Literal meaning:
Vav means “hook” or “nail.” It is the fastener, the connector, the joining principle that links elements together into a whole.

Tree of Life:
Vav connects Chokmah to Chesed. Wisdom flows into loving-kindness, the divine spark linking with mercy and generosity.

Tarot:
Vav is The Hierophant. The Hierophant mediates between spirit and community, joining the sacred with the ordinary.

Programming:
Vav is the operator or connector—the “and” logic that binds systems and functions together into a working whole.

Zayin (ז) — the seventh letter.

Literal meaning:
Zayin means “sword” or “weapon.” It’s the edge, the principle of separation and discernment, which divides and clarifies.

Tree of Life:
Zayin connects Binah to Tiferet. Understanding sharpens the heart into clarity; the sword divides illusion from truth.

Tarot:
Zayin is The Lovers. This card is about choice, moral clarity, and the need to discern the true path between options.

Programming:
Zayin is the fork or if/else statement—the point where a program must choose between different outcomes or behaviors.

Chet (ח) — the eighth letter.

Literal meaning:
Chet means “fence” or “enclosure.” It defines a sacred, protected space—an inner courtyard where life can thrive.

Tree of Life:
Chet connects Binah to Gevurah. Understanding is shaped into discipline; the enclosure focuses and protects the growing force.

Tarot:
Chet is The Chariot. The Chariot represents controlled motion, strength harnessed within boundaries and direction.

Programming:
Chet is the container or level boundary—the structure that sets the limits within which processes or logic unfold.

Tet (ט) — the ninth letter.

Literal meaning:
Tet means “serpent” or “basket.” It is the principle of hidden good, the treasure curled up in darkness, waiting to be discovered.

Tree of Life:
Tet connects Chesed to Gevurah. Mercy balances severity; hidden strengths emerge through gentle mastery.

Tarot:
Tet is Strength. This card is about inner power, compassion, and the taming of wild forces through love and patience.

Programming:
Tet is the try/catch block—the system that holds and transforms errors, revealing good hidden within apparent problems.

Yod (י) — the tenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Yod means “hand” or “point.” It’s the smallest letter, just a dot—but it’s the seed of all creation. Every other letter is born from it. It’s the spark, the flame, the first motion that begins a world.

Tree of Life:
Yod connects Chesed to Tiferet. It’s the path of generosity becoming beauty—grace expressed through form.

Tarot:
Yod corresponds to The Hermit. A lone light in the darkness. A small flame carried high. The Yod is hidden but powerful—like divine inspiration whispering through solitude.

Programming:
Yod is the initial variable. A seed value. A single line that blossoms into whole functions. Small, but foundational.

Kaph (כ) — the eleventh letter.

Literal meaning:
Kaph means “palm” or “hollowed hand.” It’s about receptivity, the ability to hold, contain, and shape. Think of it as the divine hand forming clay.

Tree of Life:
Kaph runs from Chesed to Netzach. Loving-kindness pours into desire and action—grace fueling creative drive.

Tarot:
Kaph links to The Wheel of Fortune—cycles, fate, karma. The open palm catching what life throws. Destiny in motion.

Programming:
Kaph is your function call. It catches data, holds it, and shapes output. It’s the logic that accepts and transforms.

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Lamed (ל) — the twelfth letter.

Literal meaning:
Lamed means “goad” or “staff.” It’s the letter of learning, urging forward motion—sometimes with a nudge. It’s the only letter that rises above the writing line, like a flag or a flame.

Tree of Life:
Lamed connects Gevurah to Tiferet. This is discipline refining beauty. The staff of the teacher guiding the soul.

Tarot:
Lamed is Justice—clarity, karma, and balance. It cuts clean. It teaches by adjustment.

Programming:
Lamed is your rules engine. It enforces conditions. If things don’t align, Lamed corrects them.

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Mem (מ) — the thirteenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Mem means “water.” It’s the flow of thought, emotion, and depth. There are two Mems: open (מ) and final/closed (ם). Water begins in movement and ends in silence.

Tree of Life:
Mem flows from Gevurah to Hod. Force becomes communication—emotional truth entering intellect.

Tarot:
Mem is The Hanged Man—suspension, reflection, inner surrender. Water holds and purifies.

Programming:
Mem is flow control—pauses, loops, and timeouts. It holds motion in tension.

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Nun (נ) — the fourteenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Nun means “fish.” It’s life within water, motion within depth. Like ideas swimming beneath the surface.

Tree of Life:
Nun connects Tiferet to Netzach—beauty fuels desire and victory. Art stirs the will.

Tarot:
Nun is Death. Not doom—transformation. The fish dies to become new life.

Programming:
Nun is refactoring—cutting old code to make space for better logic. Life through loss.

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Samekh (ס) — the fifteenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Samekh means “support” or “prop.” It’s the unseen structure that holds things upright. A circle with strength inside.

Tree of Life:
Samekh links Yesod to Tiferet—the subconscious (foundation) rises into the heart (beauty).

Tarot:
Samekh is Temperance—balance, flow, alchemy. Holding opposites in harmony.

Programming:
Samekh is architecture—the code scaffolding that holds everything else. Silent but vital.

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Ayin (ע) — the sixteenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Ayin means “eye.” It is perception, vision, and symbolic insight. Not just seeing—but seeing into.

Tree of Life:
Ayin joins Tiferet to Hod—beauty informs intellect. Aesthetic becomes logic.

Tarot:
Ayin is The Devil. Not evil—but attachment, illusion, the eye caught by shadow. Seeing what binds us.

Programming:
Ayin is the debugger’s eye—what do you really see when the system misbehaves?

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Pe (פ) — the seventeenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Pe means “mouth.” It’s speech, command, and expression. The letter of creative utterance.

Tree of Life:
Pe moves from Netzach to Hod—desire becomes communication. Emotion meets thought.

Tarot:
Pe is The Tower—explosive speech, breakdowns, truth shouted aloud. Destruction that frees.

Programming:
Pe is output, logging, or alerts. The system speaking back to you, sometimes loudly.

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Tzaddi (צ) — the eighteenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Tzaddi means “fishhook.” It pulls the hidden to the surface. A symbol of righteousness that draws down light.

Tree of Life:
Tzaddi links Netzach to Yesod—desire shaping the subconscious.

Tarot:
Tzaddi is The Star—hope, guidance, the light that calls you forward.

Programming:
Tzaddi is data retrieval—queries and searches that pull buried truths into view.

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Qoph (ק) — the nineteenth letter.

Literal meaning:
Qoph means “back of the head.” It represents the subconscious, the dreamworld, the unknown within us.

Tree of Life:
Qoph links Netzach to Malkuth—the will pours into reality, from astral to physical.

Tarot:
Qoph is The Moon—mystery, reflection, illusion, intuition.

Programming:
Qoph is background processing—threads running behind the scenes.

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Resh (ר) — the twentieth letter.

Literal meaning:
Resh means “head.” It’s about beginning, leadership, and visionary direction.

Tree of Life:
Resh connects Hod to Yesod—thought becomes feeling, intellect stirs emotion.

Tarot:
Resh is The Sun—clarity, joy, radiance.

Programming:
Resh is main()—the start point, where the program truly begins to shine.

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Shin (ש) — the twenty-first letter.

Literal meaning:
Shin means “tooth” or “flame.” It’s a letter of fire, transformation, and divine spirit. Often drawn with three flames—it represents the triune soul.

Tree of Life:
Shin moves from Hod to Malkuth—intellect ignites reality. Word becomes world.

Tarot:
Shin is Judgment—awakening, resurrection, the fire that renews.

Programming:
Shin is execution—when the compiled code runs and the system comes alive.

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Tav (ת) — the twenty-second and final letter.

Literal meaning:
Tav means “mark,” “seal,” or “truth.” It’s the completion, the final stamp of reality.

Tree of Life:
Tav links Yesod to Malkuth—from the subconscious to the physical. Dream becomes flesh.

Tarot:
Tav is The World—completion, integration, wholeness.

Programming:
Tav is your final commit, your build release. It seals the cycle.

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And that’s the whole Aleph-Bet—22 creative forces, 22 stages of emergence from nothing into everything.

The New Disney

Don't know if Youtube translates the start of the Dutch video but it's pretty good as well. Skip to 04.24 for the New Disney bit (apparently I'm not able to embed it starting from there) or click here.

Jimmy Kimmel’s late-night show has been taken off the air by TV network ABC, in consultation with top executives at Disney. ABC and Disney are angry about something Kimmel said on his show about the murder of Charlie Kirk

This clip is from season 2 of LUBACH. Watch the full episode on Videoland: https://v2.videoland.com/lubach-p_4629 LUBACH is a satirical news magazine show presented by Arjen Lubach. It features sharp monologues, in-depth stories, and playful sketches, as well as surprising guests, music, and stand-up comedy. It airs Monday through Thursday at 10:00 p.m. on RTL 4.
00:00 Jimmy Kimmel’s show has been cancelled
04:24 The New Disney

Lon Milo DuQuette Reads "The Chicken Qabalah of Rabbi Lamed Ben Clifford"

Next to John Michael Greer's Path's of Wisdom book, I also read this one and The Bride's Reception (aka Q.B.L.) by Lon Milo DuQuette, and now I'm going through Colin Low's Depth's of Beginning, Notes on Kaballah. Which one would I recommend you start with? Don't worry about it! You're a Chicken Qabalist!.

From the Youtube Channel: Lon Milo DuQuette Reads "The Chicken Qabalah of Rabbi Lamed Ben Clifford" Part 1 of 31 These videos were originally posted on Lon Milo Duquette's Facebook. I have sorted them by book, and made them easier to view here. These will never be monetized by me, and are only here to allow a larger audience to view them. If you enjoy them please considering purchasing the book on Amazon. Also be sure to check out his Facebook page, where he records a reading just about every day.

The Abyss - Down in a hole

I bought the collected works of Promethea by Alan Moore, which is like a Qabalah primer, and unfortunately upon delivery it was made clear that book number four was no longer available. This book is apparently only available second hand now and at pretty high prices. So I had to read a downloaded version and ironically this book also handles Daath, the 'false Sephira'.

While trying to cross the abyss they mention "It's like a black hole", meanwhile I was listening to Alice in Chains on a whim. I had never really listened to their albums, so I decided to listen to the album Dirt while reading as I had the amazing song Would in my head before I started reading. When I got to the Black Hole part in the comic the song 'Down in a Hole' was playing. 

Down in a hole, feeling so small

Down in a hole, losing my soul

I'd like to fly,

But my wings have been so denied

At first I thought the song was called Sickman, which I thought was apt as I am suffering from chronic illness, but it appeared my album mp3 tags were mislabeled. The song Sickman played a track later and had these lyrics:

I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer

When my thoughts become my biggest fear

Daath, the so-called "false sephira" of the Tree of Life, is often described as a paradox. It is not a stable sphere like Chesed or Geburah but a kind of hollow gate: a place of knowledge without wisdom, a point where intellect severs itself from the living current of the Tree. It is the Abyss that divides the supernal triad above from the rest of the Tree.

To fall into Daath is not merely to stumble into error but to become sick in the soul. It is the fever of alienation, the madness of sterile intellect, the despair of being cut off from the flow of life. Qabalists sometimes speak of the Abyss as a place of annihilation. Crossed wrongly, it leads to delusion, madness, or spiritual death.

"Down in a Hole" speaks of isolation and entombment, of being buried away from light. "Sickman" is about corruption and decay, a body or mind turning against itself. Both are Abyss imagery: the hole is Daath as the pit of separation, while the sickness is Daath as pathology of the soul. The mislabeling was not just a tech error but a symbolic echo of what Daath represents, the sickness of false knowledge, the wound of disconnection.

In Promethea, Daath features a black hole, the circle or Pi 3.14... , between Sephira 3 Binah and Sephira 4 Chesed. The sephira that "is not there." It is a cosmic ulcer in the Tree. And yet, as in all myths, the wound is also a gate. The Abyss is terrifying because it exposes the fragility of our meaning-making, but it is also the threshold that must be crossed to move beyond.

The sync between "Sickman" and Daath reminds me that even error, even sickness, has a voice. Mislabeling becomes oracle. The Abyss is not avoided by ignoring it, but by naming it, enduring it, and walking through.

Daath is called Knowledge, and that name itself is a paradox. It is not book learning or accumulated facts, but experiential knowledge, gnosis that floods the soul with direct encounter. Without understanding or wisdom to balance it, this kind of raw knowing can become a trap. In the Tree, Daath sits at the crossing point between the supernal triad (Kether, Chokmah, Binah) and the lower sephirot. It is the "bridge" that is not really a bridge, the throat that does not breathe, the hole that mimics a gate.

In Promethea, Daath is associated with Pi, the infinite number that begins 3.14 and stretches on forever. Pi is the key to the circle. A perfect circle is never fully knowable, it requires an endless calculation. In this sense, Pi stands as the unbridgeable gap between the perfect world above and the imperfect reflections below. The supernal triad rests in the realm of the archetypal, the pure forms. The lower seven sephirot live in the realm of expression, manifestation, and limit.

Daath lies exactly on that line. To approach the Abyss is to try to cross from the finite to the infinite. To mistake Daath for a real sephira is to think you can close the circle perfectly, when in truth the calculation never ends. Pi shows us that the circle always slips beyond full containment. The supernals are the perfect circle; the lower sephirot are the broken or incomplete attempt to mirror it. Daath is the illusion that you can "solve" that gap with knowledge alone.

That is why it is sickness, and why it is also initiation. To encounter Daath is to meet the limit of human knowing. It shows that intellect alone cannot take you across the Abyss. Only when knowledge is surrendered into understanding and wisdom can the circle become whole again.

The Suit of Pentacles: Earth of Assiah

In the Qabalistic Tree of Life, the Suit of Pentacles belongs to Assiah, the World of Action. Here the element of Earth grounds the other worlds: Fire becomes work, Water becomes resources, Air becomes plans, and all descend into form. Pentacles are the suit of the body, material security, wealth, health, and the cultivation of steady growth.

Each numbered card corresponds to one of the Sephiroth, showing how Earth moves through the Tree: from the Ace in Kether (seed of manifestation) to the Ten in Malkuth (the fullness of the material cycle). The Court Cards embody Earth in human form — King, Queen, Knight, and Page/Princess — each rooted in their Sephirah.

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Ace of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A divine hand extends a coin marked with a pentacle, floating above a garden path leading to mountains.

• Card meaning: Prosperity, grounded beginnings, opportunity, health, manifestation.

• Reversed meaning: Missed chance, instability, hollow start.

• Sephira (Assiah): Kether — the seed of matter.

• Sephira meaning: Pure potential of embodiment — the gift of earth.

• Numerology: 1 — seed, unity, beginning of form.

• Narrative: The seed is planted; the promise of abundance lies ahead.

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Two of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A figure juggles two pentacles within an infinity loop, ships ride waves behind him.

• Card meaning: Balance, adaptability, flexibility with resources.

• Reversed meaning: Overwhelm, imbalance, lost footing.

• Sephira (Assiah): Chokmah — wisdom, dynamic force.

• Sephira meaning: Earth in motion, the dance of stability and change.

• Numerology: 2 — polarity, balance, duality in play.

• Narrative: The coin spins; harmony comes only by constant movement.

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Three of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A mason works on a cathedral arch, plans in hand, as two others look on in collaboration.

• Card meaning: Skill, craftsmanship, teamwork, recognition of work.

• Reversed meaning: Lack of cooperation, poor planning, shoddy work.

• Sephira (Assiah): Binah — structure, understanding.

• Sephira meaning: Earth shaped by discipline and craft into form.

• Numerology: 3 — synthesis, building, cooperation.

• Narrative: The stone is set — skill and unity create lasting works.

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Four of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A figure clutches a coin to his chest, with more beneath his feet and above his crown, seated in a city.

• Card meaning: Security, stability, control, holding fast to resources.

• Reversed meaning: Greed, fear of loss, clinging too tightly.

• Sephira (Assiah): Chesed — stability, mercy.

• Sephira meaning: Earth held firm, security and boundaries established.

• Numerology: 4 — foundation, structure.

• Narrative: The walls are raised — but clinging too tightly may halt growth.

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Five of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: Two destitute figures pass before a lit church window in snow and hardship.

• Card meaning: Poverty, loss, hardship, feeling left out.

• Reversed meaning: Recovery, aid received, hope in dark times.

• Sephira (Assiah): Geburah — severity, trial.

• Sephira meaning: Earth as deprivation and testing of endurance.

• Numerology: 5 — instability, struggle, challenge.

• Narrative: The path is cold; material lack tests the spirit.

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Six of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A wealthy figure distributes coins to two beggars, scales balanced in his other hand.

• Card meaning: Generosity, fairness, balance of giving and receiving.

• Reversed meaning: Exploitation, debt, charity with strings attached.

• Sephira (Assiah): Tiferet — harmony, beauty.

• Sephira meaning: Earth balanced — justice and compassion in material exchange.

• Numerology: 6 — equilibrium, balance, reciprocity.

• Narrative: The scales of earth weigh equally — giving and receiving keep the flow alive.

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Seven of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A farmer leans on his staff, gazing at a bush heavy with seven pentacles.

• Card meaning: Patience, assessment, long-term growth, harvest delayed.

• Reversed meaning: Impatience, wasted effort, poor investment.

• Sephira (Assiah): Netzach — persistence, endurance.

• Sephira meaning: Earth as patience, reward only through time and cultivation.

• Numerology: 7 — testing, endurance.

• Narrative: The garden grows slowly — perseverance is the price of fruit.

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Eight of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A craftsman sits at his bench, carefully engraving pentacles in steady succession.

• Card meaning: Diligence, mastery, skill development, apprenticeship.

• Reversed meaning: Poor quality, lack of focus, perfectionism turned sour.

• Sephira (Assiah): Hod — structure, intellect.

• Sephira meaning: Earth shaped by repetition and discipline — skill forged through labor.

• Numerology: 8 — rhythm, work, balance through effort.

• Narrative: The hand learns its craft — mastery through repetition.

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Nine of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A refined woman walks among vines heavy with fruit, a falcon perched on her arm.

• Card meaning: Independence, self-sufficiency, luxury, earned success.

• Reversed meaning: Overdependence, financial setbacks, superficial wealth.

• Sephira (Assiah): Yesod — foundation, fruition.

• Sephira meaning: Earth as stability, wealth that supports freedom and pleasure.

• Numerology: 9 — culmination, near completion.

• Narrative: The orchard is ripe — abundance flows to those who tend it.

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Ten of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A family gathers within an archway, dogs at their feet, ancestral symbols carved in stone.

• Card meaning: Legacy, long-term security, family, tradition, inheritance.

• Reversed meaning: Broken tradition, financial loss, unstable foundations.

• Sephira (Assiah): Malkuth — manifestation, kingdom.

• Sephira meaning: Earth fully embodied, prosperity made real and lasting.

• Numerology: 10 — completion, cycle fulfilled, manifestation in matter.

• Narrative: The seed has become a forest — stability and abundance for generations.

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Court Cards of Pentacles

The Courts of Earth show how material energy takes human form. As always, they follow the family structure: King = Chokmah (Father), Queen = Binah (Mother), Knight/Prince = Tiferet (Son), Page/Princess = Malkuth (Daughter).

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Page of Pentacles
(Princess of Pentacles)

• Rider–Waite imagery: A youth gazes at a pentacle he holds aloft, standing in fertile fields.

• Card meaning: Curiosity, study, new opportunities, learning about work and resources.

• Reversed meaning: Laziness, lack of focus, missed opportunities.

• Elemental nature: Earth of Earth — groundedness at its purest.

• Sephira: Malkuth — the daughter, anchoring matter into manifestation.

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Knight of Pentacles
(Prince of Pentacles)

• Rider–Waite imagery: A knight sits upon a stationary horse, holding a pentacle carefully, gazing at the field before him.

• Card meaning: Steadiness, responsibility, patience, methodical progress.

• Reversed meaning: Stubbornness, inertia, inefficiency.

• Elemental nature: Air of Earth — careful thought shaping practical action.

• Sephira: Tiferet — the son, balance and steady motion.

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Queen of Pentacles

• Rider–Waite imagery: A queen sits upon a lush throne, cradling a pentacle, surrounded by greenery and abundance.

• Card meaning: Nurturing, practicality, prosperity, fertility, care for home and body.

• Reversed meaning: Overindulgence, neglect, imbalance between care and self-care.

• Elemental nature: Water of Earth — nourishment, fertility, grounded compassion.

• Sephira: Binah — the mother, form and abundance given shape.

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King of Pentacles
(Knight in older decks)

• Rider–Waite imagery: A king sits upon a richly decorated throne, scepter and pentacle in hand, vineyards and castles around him.

• Card meaning: Wealth, mastery of resources, stability, wise stewardship.

• Reversed meaning: Greed, stubbornness, materialism without spirit.

• Elemental nature: Fire of Earth — generative power, mastery of the material.

• Sephira: Chokmah — the father, dynamic force embodied as prosperity.

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Closing Thought

The Pentacles of Assiah trace the journey of matter — from the Ace’s seed of manifestation to the Ten’s legacy of lasting abundance. The Courts show how Earth lives in us: Page as student of the body, Knight as steady worker, Queen as nurturer of resources, King as master of prosperity.

Together, they remind us that Earth is not just weight — it is fertility, craft, and stability, the ground on which every other element stands.

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That completes the four elemental suits: Wands (Atziluth), Cups (Briah), Swords (Yetzirah), and Pentacles (Assiah).

Missiles, Muses, and Missed Chances: Dream Analysis with ChatGPT

Back in July, right as I returned to the path, I had a dream that felt like initiation. Only later did I see it was basically a Tarot spread laid out by my unconscious: Tower (defenses), Magician reversed (shadow of language), Hanged Man (different perspecitve), High Priestess (hidden devotion), Star (the muse), Lovers/Justice (the red-clad threshold), Chariot (overdrive and armor), and Five of Cups (regret). 

It was the Grail lesson in miniature: missed chances aren’t failure, they are rehearsal. The dream showed me my shields, my hesitations, and the anima slipping away - and whispered: "Next time, be ready." 

Read it on my Vallis Gradalis blog.

Life Doesn't Make Sense! | Pete Holmes

The Life of Chuck

From the hearts and minds of Stephen King and Mike Flanagan comes THE LIFE OF CHUCK, the extraordinary story of an ordinary man. This unforgettable, genre-bending tale celebrates the life of Charles 'Chuck' Krantz as he experiences the wonder of love, the heartbreak of loss, and the multitudes contained in all of us.

I really enjoyed this movie, highly recommend it. It thawed some of the coldness that came with the hard years right out of me!

Pathwalking

Today was a big day. Following Greer's Paths of Wisdom system I started my first day of the Middle pillar meditation after two months of alternating the lesser ritual of the pentagram in banishing and invoking mode every day. I will now be performing this ritual every day for at least a year.
In the sequence of meditating on each of the 10 Sephiroth daily 4 times so 40 days, I have 11 days left of meditating on the Sephiroth before I start meditating deeply on Malkuth and when that phase is done which is supposed to take 3-5 days, I will be starting the actual pathwalking which I'm really excited for.

I'm excited to work on my next blog post for Vallis Gradalis, but unfortunately I've had a few weeks of some exhaustion and inflammation which prevented me from working on it. It's coming soon-ish!

Inner Gold - Alchemy and Psychology

Alchemy occupies a unique place in the collective psyche of humankind. Swiss psychiatrist and psychologist Jung discovered alchemy and devoted the remaining 30 years of his life to studying it, which he practically dug up from the dunghill of the past, for it was considered pseudoscience, a forgotten relic of history and despised field of investigation which he had suddenly revived. Alchemy allows one to achieve wholeness through a reconnection with the unconscious. For Jung, the task of alchemy was and has always been psychological. The end product is not material in nature, but rather spiritual. Alchemy is the art of expanding consciousness, of self-realisation.

Sleep Token - Levitate & The Night Does Not Belong to God

Sleep Token - Levitate

I can lift you up
Your body is mostly blood
Like water, a perfect flood
Engulfing me again, no
And I can tell you won't
Remember my cracking bones
The trauma we can't regrow
Just as you leave again, no
Will you levitate?
Up where the angels inhabit
Will you levitate?
Where I won't reach you
And we imitate
A story of perfect days
A ballad we fabricate
As you forget your words again, no
And is that all you need?
To merely pretend to be
Falling in love with me
Forgetting the agony again, no
Will you levitate?
Up where the angels inhabit
Will you levitate?
Where I won't reach you
Will you levitate?
Up where my love doesn't matter
Will you levitate?
Where I won't reach you
Will you levitate?

Sleep Token - The Night Does Not Belong to God

When you live, by daylight
With angels at your side
In order now, bestowed by
The light of the sunrise
And you remember everything
Only 'til the Sun recedes once again
And the night comes down like heaven
The whites of your eyes
Turns black in the low light
In turning divine
We tangle endlessly
Like lovers entwined
I know for the last time
You will not be mine
So give me the night, the night, the night

The Psychology of Angels

Angels have fascinated human consciousness since the beginning of time. The word angel derives from the Greek angelos, which is the default translation of the Biblical Hebrew term mal’ākh (literally “messenger”). The angel is a messenger between God and mankind.

Whether we talk about angels, daimons, djinns, fairies, or any other of such beings, they all hold something in common, despite their difference in appearance, namely, they are all archetypal images of the same fundamental pattern, the archetype of the ethereal being. These spirits coexist with us; they just exist at another level of reality.

As the archetypal image of the call, the angel initiates individuation, the journey towards wholeness of personality (the Self), as well theosis (union with God). Therefore, angels can help us both psychologically and spiritually. The integration of the angel archetype allows us to examine the nature of our essence or soul, the uniqueness that asks to be lived in each of us, and that unfolds itself during our lifetime. Thus, angels carry our true vocation, which is a calling, towards the meaning of our life.

The Psychology of The Magician

The Magician is the most mysterious and fascinating of all archetypes. He is a person who has gained access to esoteric or occult (hidden) knowledge, bringing the spiritual to the material. Thus, he is an initiate of secret and hidden knowledge of all kinds. As the Emerald Tablet teaches us, “As above, so below, and as below, so above, to accomplish the marvels of the One work.”

The Magician is often the mentor or guide to his people, and even to the king. Psychologically, the Magician is the archetype of transformation, transforming old realities into new ones. He is the archetype of self-realisation par excellence. The Magician aids us in our lifelong task of attaining a higher level of consciousness, and of recognising that higher power which is greater than ourselves.

The Psychology of The Wounded Healer

I could probably post a video each day from the amazing Eternalised channel, would that be too much? I'm not sure it can be!

The wounded healer refers to the capacity to be at home in the darkness of suffering and there to find germs of light and recovery. It is the archetype at the bottom of all genuine healing procedures. As long as we feel victimised, bitter and resentful towards our wound, and seek to escape from suffering it, we remain inescapably bound to it. This is neurotic suffering, as opposed to the authentic suffering of the wounded healer which is purified. The wound can destroy you, or it can wake you up. As Carl Jung wrote, "The doctor is effective only when he himself is affected. Only the wounded physician heals."

The Valley of the Grail

More than ten years have passed since I was diagnosed with chronic Lyme disease, and the road since has been long. My health collapsed, and for years I was off the path and silent here.

Now I have found my way back. A new space has opened: Vallis Gradalis. There I share how illness, partial recovery, Qabalah, dreams, and ritual led me again into the Grail quest, the seeker who falters, asks again, and learns through the journey itself.

Dedroidify will remain, while Vallis Gradalis is where I tell the story of returning to the path, and of the walk that continues.

Read the first post here at Vallis Gradalis.

The Suit of Swords: Air of Yetzirah

In the Qabalistic Tree of Life, the Suit of Swords belongs to Yetzirah, the World of Formation. Here, Air takes the fiery inspiration of Atziluth and the watery imagination of Briah and gives them shape through thought, language, and pattern. Swords are the suit of the mind: reason, analysis, justice, conflict, and sometimes sorrow. They cut through illusion, but they can also wound.

Each numbered card corresponds to one of the Sephiroth, showing how the Air of Yetzirah manifests through the Tree: from the Ace in Kether (pure clarity) to the Ten in Malkuth (ruin and collapse). The Court Cards embody Air in human form — King, Queen, Knight, and Page/Princess — each carrying their own Sephirothic role.

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Ace of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A hand emerges from the cloud, holding an upright sword crowned with wreaths of victory. Mountains rise in the distance.

• Card meaning: Clarity, truth, mental breakthrough, decisive power.

• Reversed meaning: Confusion, misuse of intellect, distorted truth.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Kether — Crown, pure emanation.

• Sephira meaning: The first flash of truth, the sword of mind descending from the divine.

• Numerology: 1 — seed, unity, beginning of thought.

• Narrative: The sword is raised; the light of truth descends to cut through darkness.

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Two of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A blindfolded woman sits between land and sea, holding two crossed swords in balance under a calm moon.

• Card meaning: Stalemate, decision, inner conflict, balance of opposites.

• Reversed meaning: Indecision, denial, confusion, imbalance.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Chokmah — dynamic wisdom.

• Sephira meaning: The tension of duality, intellect forced to choose.

• Numerology: 2 — polarity, choice, balance of forces.

• Narrative: The swords cross in stillness; decision waits, but cannot be delayed forever.

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Three of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: Three swords pierce a heart beneath a stormy sky.

• Card meaning: Heartbreak, grief, sorrow, truth that wounds.

• Reversed meaning: Release of pain, forgiveness, delayed heartbreak.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Binah — structure, understanding.

• Sephira meaning: The form of sorrow, grief shaped into awareness.

• Numerology: 3 — synthesis, but here through pain.

• Narrative: The sword’s clarity pierces the heart — truth cannot be avoided.

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Four of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A knight lies in repose upon a tomb, hands folded, one sword beneath him, three above. A window shows a scene of prayer.

• Card meaning: Rest, recovery, meditation, retreat.

• Reversed meaning: Restlessness, refusal to pause, burnout.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Chesed — mercy, stability.

• Sephira meaning: The mind finding rest within structure, healing after strife.

• Numerology: 4 — foundation, pause, restoration.

• Narrative: The swords are sheathed; the mind recovers its strength.

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Five of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A figure smirks while collecting swords from defeated opponents; two walk away under a bleak sky.

• Card meaning: Defeat, hollow victory, conflict without honor.

• Reversed meaning: Reconciliation, lessons learned, making amends.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Geburah — severity, testing.

• Sephira meaning: The sharp edge of conflict, destructive use of power.

• Numerology: 5 — instability, strife, challenge.

• Narrative: The wind howls — victory is empty when won without balance.

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Six of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A boat carries figures across calm waters, guided toward distant shores.

• Card meaning: Transition, passage, healing journey, moving on.

• Reversed meaning: Stagnation, inability to move forward, clinging to pain.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Tiferet — beauty, harmony.

• Sephira meaning: The sword’s clarity guides the soul across troubled waters to balance.

• Numerology: 6 — harmony, reconciliation.

• Narrative: The mind leaves storm behind, gliding toward calmer shores.

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Seven of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A figure sneaks away from a camp carrying five swords, glancing back; two are left behind.

• Card meaning: Strategy, cunning, deception, secrecy.

• Reversed meaning: Exposure, confession, clarity.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Netzach — desire, persistence.

• Sephira meaning: Air used strategically, intellect employed with cunning or trickery.

• Numerology: 7 — testing, challenge, risk.

• Narrative: The sword can be sly — cleverness hides as easily as it reveals.

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Eight of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A blindfolded woman is bound, surrounded by eight swords, though the path is open if she sees it.

• Card meaning: Restriction, self-imposed bondage, paralysis of fear.

• Reversed meaning: Release, empowerment, seeing clearly at last.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Hod — intellect, order.

• Sephira meaning: Thought crystallized into a prison, the danger of mind turned against itself.

• Numerology: 8 — structure, repetition, the cage of reason.

• Narrative: The wind becomes a snare; freedom lies just beyond false bindings.

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Nine of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A figure sits upright in bed, hands covering face, nine swords hanging on the wall behind.

• Card meaning: Anxiety, despair, sleepless nights, mental anguish.

• Reversed meaning: Hope returning, recovery, easing of pain.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Yesod — foundation, subconscious.

• Sephira meaning: The mind’s shadows, fear magnified in the night.

• Numerology: 9 — culmination, burden before release.

• Narrative: The air grows heavy with nightmares — yet dawn waits beyond.

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Ten of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A figure lies face down with ten swords in his back, a dark sky above, but sunrise breaking on the horizon.

• Card meaning: Finality, collapse, betrayal, endings.

• Reversed meaning: Recovery, regeneration, ruin averted.

• Sephira (Yetzirah): Malkuth — manifestation.

• Sephira meaning: The mind’s ruin embodied in matter, collapse at the cycle’s end.

• Numerology: 10 — completion, end of cycle, destruction clearing space.

• Narrative: The storm has struck its final blow — but light returns with the dawn.

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Court Cards of Swords

Before reading the Courts, recall their “divine family”: King = Father (Chokmah), Queen = Mother (Binah), Knight/Prince = Son (Tiferet), Page/Princess = Daughter (Malkuth). Each expresses Air in a different mode.

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Page of Swords (Princess of Swords)

• Rider–Waite imagery: A youth stands with sword raised, wind swirling, ready to act, eyes alert.

• Card meaning: Curiosity, vigilance, new ideas, youthful intellect.

• Reversed meaning: Gossip, spying, mental restlessness.

• Elemental nature: Earth of Air — grounded curiosity, learning the power of thought.

• Sephira: Malkuth — the daughter, anchoring Air into manifestation.

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Knight of Swords (Prince of Swords)

• Rider–Waite imagery: A knight charges forward with sword raised, his horse galloping into strong winds.

• Card meaning: Swift action, bold words, fearless pursuit of truth.

• Reversed meaning: Recklessness, thoughtless cruelty, rashness.

• Elemental nature: Air of Air — intellect doubled, the storm of thought.

• Sephira: Tiferet — the son, Air in motion, carrying the balance forward.

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Queen of Swords

• Rider–Waite imagery: A queen sits on her throne with a sword raised, other hand extended as if inviting, sharp yet just.

• Card meaning: Clarity, independence, honesty, fairness.

• Reversed meaning: Coldness, cruelty, bitterness, harsh judgment.

• Elemental nature: Water of Air — compassion joined with reason.

• Sephira: Binah — the mother, form and discernment of Air.

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King of Swords (Knight in older decks)

• Rider–Waite imagery: A king sits firmly upon his throne, sword upright, surrounded by butterflies and clear skies.

• Card meaning: Authority, justice, rational mastery, truth upheld.

• Reversed meaning: Tyranny, manipulation, corruption of reason.

• Elemental nature: Fire of Air — the decisive blaze of intellect.

• Sephira: Chokmah — the father, pure outpouring of mental force.

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Closing Thought

The Swords of Yetzirah trace the powers of Air through the Tree of Life — from the Ace’s clarity in Kether to the Ten’s collapse in Malkuth. They reveal how thought shapes reality, for better or worse: as insight, as conflict, or as sorrow. The Court Cards then show how Air walks in human form: Page as restless seeker, Knight as storming crusader, Queen as discerning judge, King as rational authority.

Together, they remind us that the sword is double-edged: it protects and clarifies, but also wounds when wielded without wisdom.