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Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts

Sunday, September 7, 2025

The Psychology of Angels

Angels have fascinated human consciousness since the beginning of time. The word angel derives from the Greek angelos, which is the default translation of the Biblical Hebrew term mal’ākh (literally “messenger”). The angel is a messenger between God and mankind.

Whether we talk about angels, daimons, djinns, fairies, or any other of such beings, they all hold something in common, despite their difference in appearance, namely, they are all archetypal images of the same fundamental pattern, the archetype of the ethereal being. These spirits coexist with us; they just exist at another level of reality.

As the archetypal image of the call, the angel initiates individuation, the journey towards wholeness of personality (the Self), as well theosis (union with God). Therefore, angels can help us both psychologically and spiritually. The integration of the angel archetype allows us to examine the nature of our essence or soul, the uniqueness that asks to be lived in each of us, and that unfolds itself during our lifetime. Thus, angels carry our true vocation, which is a calling, towards the meaning of our life.

Wednesday, September 3, 2025

The Psychology of The Wounded Healer

I could probably post a video each day from the amazing Eternalised channel, would that be too much? I'm not sure it can be!

The wounded healer refers to the capacity to be at home in the darkness of suffering and there to find germs of light and recovery. It is the archetype at the bottom of all genuine healing procedures. As long as we feel victimised, bitter and resentful towards our wound, and seek to escape from suffering it, we remain inescapably bound to it. This is neurotic suffering, as opposed to the authentic suffering of the wounded healer which is purified. The wound can destroy you, or it can wake you up. As Carl Jung wrote, "The doctor is effective only when he himself is affected. Only the wounded physician heals."

Tuesday, September 2, 2025

The Valley of the Grail

More than ten years have passed since I was diagnosed with chronic Lyme disease, and the road since has been long. My health collapsed, and for years I was off the path and silent here.

Now I have found my way back. A new space has opened: Vallis Gradalis. There I share how illness, partial recovery, Qabalah, dreams, and ritual led me again into the Grail quest, the seeker who falters, asks again, and learns through the journey itself.

Dedroidify will remain, while Vallis Gradalis is where I tell the story of returning to the path, and of the walk that continues.

Read the first post here at Vallis Gradalis.

Monday, September 1, 2025

The Quest for the Holy Grail (Self)

The Quest for the Holy Grail has fascinated the Western consciousness for a long time. It epitomises the true spirit of Western man and is, in many ways, the myth of Western civilisation. It is a perennial and timeless pattern that expresses fundamental concerns of the human condition.

The Holy Grail is a mysterious object guarded by a king in a hidden castle. It has been described as a cup, dish, or a magical stone that can provide healing powers, immortality, eternal youth, and unlimited nourishment. It represents the fulfilment of the highest spiritual potentialities in human consciousness, which endows the world with a symbolic and spiritual meaning. The quest for the Holy Grail is always more or less the same, it is the hero’s journey, at the end of which one obtains the “treasure hard to attain.” It is the search for that which makes life most meaningful.

Psychologically, the Holy Grail—like the philosophers' stone—is a symbol of the Self, the psychic totality and ultimate wholeness of the human being. The soul which represents the life principle, is that wondrous vessel which is the goal of the quest, whose final secret can never be revealed, but must ever remain hidden because its essence is a mystery.

Sunday, August 31, 2025

Initiates of the Flame (1922) by Manly P. Hall


Summary: The Initiates of the Flame is a little essay on the mystery of fire. To all ancient peoples fire was a symbol of the divine One dwelling in the innermost parts of all things. Robert Fludd, a Rosicrucian mystic, writing in the seventeenth century, declared that the fire of the philosophers was divided into three parts: first, a visible fire which is the source of physical light and heat; second, an invisible, or astral fire, which enlightens and warms the soul; third, a spiritual, or divine fire which in the universe is known as God and in man as spirit.

The Initiates who took their oaths in the presence of the Flame renounced the lesser concerns of ordinary life and, freed from the attachments of this material sphere, these purified souls became custodians of that symbolic Flame of wisdom which is the true Light of the world. This Light is a manifestation of the one Universal Life, that active agent whose impulses are the cause of all sidereal phenomena. Where in antiquity this flame of light, this spirit-fire, was the object of a universal adoration and was worshipped as the very presence of God Himself, it now lies buried beneath the ruins of man's fallen temple. Obscured by the paramount interests of the flesh, it emits but the faintest gleam in this non-philosophic age. 

    Manly P. Hall

Wednesday, August 27, 2025

Vallis Gradalis: Into the Valley of the Grail — My New Personal Blog

I’ve started a new blog, Vallis Gradalis, where I’ll share more personal and deeper reflections from my unfolding pathwalking journey. I’ll continue posting on Dedroidify as well, but Vallis Gradalis will carry the more personal and intimate side of the work.”

https://vallisgradalis.wordpress.com/

Join me on my healing quest through the Valley of the Holy Grail, where I walk as both Parsifal and the wounded Fisher King. This space will be a living, ever-changing laboratory, a path unfolding step by step.

Here I will record and share what I actually practice and discover: charting my way astrologically through the Tree of Life, guided by the Tarot’s archetypes. With the aid of AI as my scribe and mirror, I explore dreams, meet the shadow, and weave them back into wholeness. Daily magick ritual, yoga and meditation are some of the tools on this pilgrimage. Experience will be explored through multiple reality tunnels.

The Great Work before me is to transmute the fire of my chronic Lyme inflammation into Light.

This valley is the Grail itself, both vessel and voyage.

The journey begins on September 2nd at Vallis Gradalis


Monday, August 25, 2025

Experiencing Chokmah and Binah: The Flash and the Womb

Experiencing Chokmah and Binah: The Flash and the Womb

On the Tree of Life, Chokmah (Wisdom) and Binah (Understanding) form the primal polarity at the top of the diagram. They’re sometimes called the “Father” and the “Mother,” or Force and Form. But for many students of Kabbalah, the real question isn’t just what they are in theory - it’s how can these lofty sephiroth actually be experienced in human life?

The truth is: we rarely touch them directly. Instead, their currents pour downward into the Sephiroth below, and we experience them through those channels - like wine tasted through the cup that holds it.


Chokmah: The Lightning Flash

Chokmah is the raw spark of being, the “Eureka!” moment, the sudden rush of insight. It doesn’t reason or explain. It just is - immediate, dazzling, overwhelming.

For us, Chokmah’s wisdom is felt through three Sephiroth:

  • Chesed (Mercy): Chokmah’s force becomes benevolence, generosity, and abundance. The feeling of “there’s enough for all” comes from here.

  • Tiferet (Beauty): Chokmah’s flash is refined into radiant harmony, compassion, and truth at the heart. This is the mystical “aha” that resonates in the chest.

  • Netzach (Victory): Chokmah becomes passion, creative inspiration, the drive to bring ideas into art and action. It’s wisdom in motion.

So when you feel inspiration flood you - whether as a sudden solution, a radiant act of love, or a burst of artistic fire - that’s Chokmah’s current moving through you.


Binah: The Great Womb

Binah is the container, the form-giver, the womb that receives the flash of Chokmah and makes it livable. If Chokmah is lightning, Binah is the sky that holds it. She is discipline, structure, the slow gestation of ideas until they are ready to emerge.

For us, Binah’s understanding is felt through three Sephiroth:

  • Geburah (Severity): Binah’s structure manifests as boundaries, discipline, and discernment. It’s the ability to cut away what doesn’t belong.

  • Tiferet (Beauty): Binah here becomes balance and justice - the weighing of truth, the harmonization of opposites.

  • Hod (Splendor): Binah’s containment flows into the reflective, analytical mind: study, interpretation, language, and careful thought.

When you feel a dawning comprehension, the slow crystallization of meaning, or the firm setting of boundaries that give your life shape - that’s Binah’s current flowing through.


The Human Angle

Both Chokmah and Binah are Supernal - far above ordinary experience. But because their energy pours downward, we taste them daily through their children below.

  • Chokmah appears as the flash of insight that fills us with vitality and creativity.

  • Binah appears as the form of comprehension that stabilizes, disciplines, and makes sense of that flash.

They are two halves of the same dance: raw possibility and shaping understanding. Together, they are the source of all wisdom, but we meet them in the everyday - in our acts of love, our moments of clarity, our disciplines, and our creative fire.


In short:

  • Chokmah is the lightning.

  • Binah is the womb.

  • We live their currents every day, even if we rarely glimpse them in their purest form.

Saturday, August 23, 2025

The Suit of Wands: Fire of Atziluth

The Suit of Wands: Fire of Atziluth

In the Qabalistic Tree of Life, the Suit of Wands belongs to Atziluth, the World of Emanation. This is the primordial Fire — will, inspiration, and the drive to act before form takes shape. In Tarot, Wands bring that current into human life as passion, courage, creativity, and the trials of growth.

Each numbered card corresponds to one of the Sephiroth on the Tree of Life, showing how the Fire of Atziluth manifests through that sphere: the Ace as Kether (pure crown of fire), the Two as Chokmah (dynamic will), the Three as Binah (structure of vision), continuing through the Tree until the Ten as Malkuth (fire grounded in the physical world). The Court Cards then show how these forces take human form — Page, Knight, Queen, and King — each embodying an elemental aspect of Fire and rooted in a Sephirah.


Ace of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A divine hand emerges from a cloud, grasping a single wand alive with leaves. In the distance, a fertile valley, river, and castle suggest promise and growth.

  • Card meaning: Inspiration, the first spark of creativity, raw energy not yet shaped. The will awakens and offers a new path.

  • Reversed meaning: False starts, blocked passion, hesitation to ignite.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Kether — Crown, the source of pure emanation.

  • Sephira meaning: The primal fire that descends from beyond thought, the spark of divine will entering existence.

  • Numerology: 1 — beginnings, seed, unity of fire before division.

  • Narrative: The flame has been lit — not yet a torch or a hearth, but the promise of all fires to come.


Two of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A figure stands on battlements holding a wand, globe in hand, gazing across the sea to distant lands. Another wand is fixed behind him.

  • Card meaning: Planning, vision, the courage to leave the familiar and expand into new territory.

  • Reversed meaning: Indecision, fear of risk, clinging to safety.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Chokmah — Wisdom, dynamic force.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire expressed as pure will-to-act, the raw impulse to expand.

  • Numerology: 2 — polarity, choice, projection outward.

  • Narrative: The spark becomes intention, gazing out to future horizons.


Three of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A figure stands with three staves, watching ships sail outward on the sea. The land is fertile and the view expansive.

  • Card meaning: Expansion, enterprise, trade, cooperation, plans bearing fruit.

  • Reversed meaning: Delays, narrow vision, missed opportunities.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Binah — Understanding, structure.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire shaped into form, the channeling of vision into a framework.

  • Numerology: 3 — synthesis, growth, first stability.

  • Narrative: The fire grows outward, carried by ships, the promise of return.


Four of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: Two figures raise bouquets beneath a garlanded arch of four wands. Behind them, a joyful crowd and castle.

  • Card meaning: Celebration, harmony, foundation, a moment of joyful stability.

  • Reversed meaning: Tension at home, instability, celebration postponed.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Chesed — Mercy, expansion, benevolence.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire becomes structure of stability, creating harmony and a hearth.

  • Numerology: 4 — foundation, balance, rootedness.

  • Narrative: Fire finds its first home — the hearth becomes a place of joy.


Five of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: Five youths clash with wands in chaotic struggle, none yet victorious.

  • Card meaning: Conflict, competition, struggle for mastery.

  • Reversed meaning: Needless quarrels, chaos, inner conflict.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Geburah — Severity, discipline, testing.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire as trial by combat, the sharpening through struggle.

  • Numerology: 5 — instability, challenge, conflict.

  • Narrative: Sparks fly as the fire tests itself against rivals.


Six of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A rider returns crowned with laurel, greeted by a cheering crowd, staff held high.

  • Card meaning: Victory, recognition, the reward of perseverance.

  • Reversed meaning: Hollow victory, pride, lack of true support.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Tiferet — Beauty, harmony, integration.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire reconciled into triumph, the balanced radiance of success.

  • Numerology: 6 — harmony, victory, restored order.

  • Narrative: The flame shines openly, seen and honored by all.


Seven of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A figure on high ground defends against six attackers, staff in hand, outnumbered but resolute.

  • Card meaning: Perseverance, courage, standing firm under pressure.

  • Reversed meaning: Overwhelm, defensiveness, faltering resolve.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Netzach — Victory through endurance, persistence of desire.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire as inner courage, the will that resists collapse.

  • Numerology: 7 — trial of spirit, inner strength tested.

  • Narrative: The fire refuses to be extinguished, holding its ground.


Eight of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: Eight wands fly like arrows across an open sky, unimpeded and swift.

  • Card meaning: Acceleration, swift action, communication, momentum.

  • Reversed meaning: Delays, scattered energy, miscommunication.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Hod — Splendor, intellect, order.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire finds rhythm and pattern, carried swiftly as message.

  • Numerology: 8 — movement, balance, directed power.

  • Narrative: The fire no longer waits — it races ahead like lightning.


Nine of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A weary guard leans on his wand, bandaged and bruised, yet still defiant, defending his ground.

  • Card meaning: Resilience, endurance, strength to push through the last trial.

  • Reversed meaning: Burnout, paranoia, refusal to rest.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Yesod — Foundation, reservoir, the unseen support.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire is tested at the threshold of manifestation, demanding endurance.

  • Numerology: 9 — culmination, final test before completion.

  • Narrative: The flame flickers but endures; the guardian still stands.


Ten of Wands

  • Rider–Waite imagery: A figure staggers forward beneath the crushing weight of ten wands, carrying them toward a distant town.

  • Card meaning: Burden, responsibility, the fire now heavy with form, the cost of completion.

  • Reversed meaning: Release of burden, delegation, collapse under unshared weight.

  • Sephira (Atziluth): Malkuth — Kingdom, manifestation.

  • Sephira meaning: Fire fully grounded, the weight of will in the material world.

  • Numerology: 10 — completion, manifestation, cycle fulfilled but heavy.

  • Narrative: The fire has reached the world — but its weight bows the bearer.


Court Cards of Wands

The Courts show how the fire of Atziluth takes human form, each combining Fire with another element, and each rooted in a Sephirah on the Tree.

How the Court Cards Work on the Tree of Life

The four Court Cards represent the archetypal family of forces, each linked to a Sephira on the Tree of Life and to an element of their suit. Together they show how the energies of the suit are born, shaped, carried, and grounded.

  • King (sometimes called Knight in older decks)

    • Role: Father – the initiating, fiery seed of the element.

    • Sephira: Chokmah – Wisdom, the dynamic outpouring of force.

  • Queen

    • Role: Mother – the shaping, receptive vessel of the element.

    • Sephira: Binah – Understanding, the womb that gives form.

  • Knight (sometimes called Prince)

    • Role: Son – balance in motion, the child of King and Queen, carrying the suit’s energy forward.

    • Sephira: Tiferet – Beauty, harmony, the center where energies reconcile.

  • Page (sometimes called Princess)

    • Role: Daughter – manifestation, grounding the energy into the world.

    • Sephira: Malkuth – Kingdom, the realm of manifestation where all forces arrive.

The Page is sometimes renamed the Princess, which emphasizes her role as the one who anchors the entire suit into Malkuth. She is the youngest, but also the most crucial, because she completes the cycle and carries the seed of renewal back toward Kether.

Friday, August 22, 2025

The Four Worlds of Qabalah and the Minor Arcana of Tarot

The Four Worlds of Qabalah and the Tarot

The Qabalistic Tree of Life is not a flat diagram: it repeats itself through Four Worlds, layers through which energy descends from spirit into matter. Tarot reflects these worlds in its suits and numbers, giving us a way to read that process directly in the cards.

The Four Worlds

  • Atziluth : Emanation (Fire)
    The spark of divine will, raw energy before it takes form.
    Tarot suit: Wands.
    Symbolism: Wands stand for drive, inspiration, creativity, ambition, and spiritual fire. They are the torch of purpose, passion that propels us forward, but also the restlessness that can burn unchecked.
    Sephirot included: Kether, Chokmah, Binah (the Supernal triad).
    Role: Source of inspiration, beginnings, pure will.

  • Briah : Creation (Water)
    The dream-space where archetypes take shape and vision flows.
    Tarot suit: Cups.
    Symbolism: Cups represent emotions, relationships, intuition, and imagination. They are vessels of the heart, joy, sorrow, love, memory, and longing. They show us how inspiration takes on form through feeling.
    Sephirot included: Chesed, Geburah, Tiferet.
    Role: Emotions, ideals, creative shaping.

  • Yetzirah : Formation (Air)
    The architect’s world of thought, pattern, and design.
    Tarot suit: Swords.
    Symbolism: Swords embody the mind, logic, communication, judgment, and conflict. They cut both ways: clarity and truth, or doubt and strife. They show us how ideas clash, refine, and sharpen.
    Sephirot included: Netzach, Hod, Yesod.
    Role: Thought, structure, trial by intellect.

  • Assiah : Action (Earth)
    The physical plane, the tangible results of all the upper worlds.
    Tarot suit: Pentacles.
    Symbolism: Pentacles stand for material life, body, work, money, health, craft, and legacy. They are the coins of embodiment, where inspiration finally becomes brick, bread, and blood.
    Sephirah included: Malkuth.
    Role: Grounded reality, results, manifestation.

Numbers of the Minor Arcana

Each numbered Minor (Ace through Ten) links to a Sephirah, showing what happens when that sephirotic energy moves through a suit/world.

  • Ace – Kether: pure spark of the element
  • Two – Chokmah: dynamic expansion
  • Three – Binah: structure, understanding
  • Four – Chesed: stability, order
  • Five – Geburah: conflict, severity, strength
  • Six – Tiferet: harmony, balance, beauty
  • Seven – Netzach: endurance, passion, desire
  • Eight – Hod: intellect, clarity, analysis
  • Nine – Yesod: imagination, reflection, subconscious
  • Ten – Malkuth: final manifestation, completion

Examples

Five of Wands – Geburah (conflict) expressed in Fire/Wands: strife, competition
Six of Cups – Tiferet (harmony) expressed in Water/Cups: innocence, nostalgia
Eight of Swords – Hod (restriction) expressed in Air/Swords: mental traps, paralysis

Why it Matters

The Four Worlds are not abstract philosophy: they are a practical key to Tarot. They show which stage of reality a card is speaking from: the spark (Atziluth), the dream (Briah), the plan (Yetzirah), or the result (Assiah). Combine that with the number (Sephirah), and you are looking at a complete address for the energy in play.

Thursday, August 21, 2025

And today we follow the Major Arcana cards of the Tarot climbing up the Paths on the Tree of Life

Here’s the Major Arcana as a short “Fool’s ascent” from Malkuth (the World) up to Keter, each line: path number, sephiroth pair (with numbers), card, Hebrew letter + brief meaning, then one story-sentence that reads as a continuous upward journey.

Path 32: 10 Malkuth ↔ 9 Yesod — The World — ת Tav (Sign, Seal, Covenant)
The kingdom breathes and lifts; the World seals what was learned in the soil, and the Fool packs the map and steps toward the moonlit bridge of foundation.

Path 31: 8 Hod ↔ 10 Malkuth — Judgement — ש Shin (Tooth, Fire)
Voice from the world flames upward; Judgement’s fire bites away the complacency of the ground and calls the Fool to answer, reassembling purpose into a clearer form.

Path 30: 8 Hod ↔ 9 Yesod — The Sun — ר Resh (Head, Radiant Face)
Joy from the mind brightens the inner well; the Sun crowns the Fool’s face with a dawning clarity that warms the path upward.

Path 29: 7 Netzach ↔ 10 Malkuth — The Moon — ק Qoph (Back of Head, Hidden)
Instinct in the kingdom shifts into shadowed rhythm; the Moon teaches the Fool to notice the hidden turns at the back of the head and to dream awake as the climb begins.

Path 28: 7 Netzach ↔ 9 Yesod — The Star — צ Tzaddi (Hook, Righteous Harvest)
After the first shocks, hope waters the ascent; the Star hooks stray light into the Fool’s hand, gathering a steadier faith to pull upward.

Path 27: 7 Netzach ↔ 8 Hod — The Tower — פ Peh (Mouth, Speech)
What once stood cracks and collapses, and the speech of the world becomes thunder; the Tower’s ruin clears the way, forcing the Fool to rebuild with truer words.

Path 26: 6 Tiphareth ↔ 8 Hod — The Devil — ע Ayin (Eye, Experience)
Beneath the rising sun temptations glare; the Devil fixes Ayin upon the Fool so the climb becomes a lesson in meeting appetite without losing the heart.

Path 25: 6 Tiphareth ↔ 9 Yesod — Temperance — ס Samekh (Support, Prop)
The heart learns to blend what it finds; Temperance props the Fool’s rhythm, pouring golden patience between cups as the path narrows.

Path 24: 6 Tiphareth ↔ 7 Netzach — Death — נ Nun (Fish, Transformation)
At the heart’s threshold old forms are shed; Death carries the Fool through a watery reversal, leaving only the seed that will grow higher.

Path 23: 5 Geburah ↔ 8 Hod — The Hanged Man — מ Mem (Water, Reversal)
Severity teaches a new stance; the Hanged Man surrenders in Mem’s current so the Fool may see the ladder from a flipped angle.

Path 22: 5 Geburah ↔ 6 Tiphareth — Justice — ל Lamed (Goad, Teaching)
Strength meets beauty and is measured; Justice prods with Lamed until the Fool’s choices balance like scales guiding the next ascent.

Path 21: 4 Chesed ↔ 7 Netzach — Wheel of Fortune — כ Kaph (Palm, Grasp)
Cycles spin the climb forward; Fortune opens Kaph in the Fool’s hand so chance becomes a grasped teacher on the upward road.

Path 20: 4 Chesed ↔ 6 Tiphareth — The Hermit — י Yod (Hand, Deed)
Mercy turns inward to search; the Hermit lifts Yod’s small lamp so the Fool can make a careful, hands-on step into quieter wisdom.

Path 19: 4 Chesed ↔ 5 Geburah — Strength — ט Teth (Serpent, Inner Power)
Compassion and discipline braid inside the chest; Strength coaxes Teth’s serpent into a controlled courage that steadies the Fool’s ascent.

Path 18: 2 Chokmah ↔ 4 Chesed — The Chariot — ח Cheth (Fence, Field)
Insight drives the will through ordered space; the Chariot charges across Cheth’s field and the Fool rides with disciplined motion toward higher light.

Path 17: 3 Binah ↔ 6 Tiphareth — The Lovers — ז Zayin (Sword, Choice)
Understanding and heart must choose a truth; the Lovers lift Zayin so the Fool’s commitment becomes the bridge rather than a barrier.

Path 16: 2 Chokmah ↔ 4 Chesed — The Hierophant — ו Vav (Hook, Nail, Connection)
Wisdom seeks tradition to hold it; the Hierophant drives Vav like a peg into lineage, hooking the Fool’s spark to rites that guide the climb.

Path 15: 2 Chokmah ↔ 6 Tiphareth — The Emperor — ה Heh (Window, Vision)
Insight is framed into rule; the Emperor looks through Heh’s window and gives the Fool a structured vision for the next stage.

Path 14: 2 Chokmah ↔ 3 Binah — The Empress — ד Daleth (Door, Nourishment)
Force meets form and the world feeds; the Empress opens Daleth’s door and nourishes the Fool so growth can continue upward.

Path 13: 1 Keter ↔ 6 Tiphareth — The High Priestess — ג Gimel (Camel, Lifting, the Unconscious)
A veil parts as the inner waters rise; the High Priestess ferries mysteries like a camel, lifting the Fool’s unconscious closer to conscious light.

Path 12: 1 Keter ↔ 3 Binah — The Magician — ב Beth (House, Temple)
From above a structure is imagined into being; the Magician lays tools in Beth’s household and teaches the Fool how will shapes the heavens.

Path 11: 1 Keter ↔ 2 Chokmah — The Fool — א Aleph (Ox, Breath, Air)
At last the Crown draws the Breath back to itself; Aleph’s airy openness receives the Fool, who arrives at the rim laughing with the journey’s lessons folded into silence.

There—ascending from the world to the crown, told as a continuous climb. If you want each entry separated with extra blank lines for OneNote paste or a version that strings them into one continuous paragraph for a single "Fool’s ascent" narrative, I’ll format that next.

Wednesday, August 20, 2025

We dive a bit deeper into the Major Arcana cards of the Tarot descending the Paths on the Tree of Life

Now that we've had a primer on the Major Arcana Journey, let's dive in a bit deeper and see how each of the 22 cards connect the different Sephiroth on the Tree of Life. There's also a Hebrew letter and its meaning that is of importance, don't worry about why too much for now.

First let's see it in the downward direction from 1 Kether to 10 Malkuth. The divine light streams from Keter down through each Sephira, clothing itself in wisdom, love, form, and dream, until at last it crystallizes as the material world in Malkuth.

Path 11: 1 Keter ↔ 2 Chokmah — The Fool — א Aleph (Ox, Breath, Air)
The primordial Breath leaps from the Crown into raw dynamic force. Innocence meets power; Aleph’s airy openness shows the Fool’s trust in the infinite.

Path 12: 1 Keter ↔ 3 Binah — The Magician — ב Beth (House)
Will takes form. The House of Understanding receives the Word; Beth is the container, the dwelling that focuses the Magician’s will into manifestation.

Path 13: 1 Keter ↔ 6 Tiferet — The High Priestess — ג Gimel (Camel, Bridge)
Across the great span the Veiled One ferries light to the solar heart. Gimel, the camel, symbolizes the journey across the desert, carrying hidden wisdom between spirit and heart.

Path 14: 2 Chokmah ↔ 3 Binah — The Empress — ד Daleth (Door)
The Door between force and form opens. Daleth is the gateway of creativity, where Chokmah’s energy enters Binah’s form, birthing abundance.

Path 15: 2 Chokmah ↔ 6 Tiferet — The Emperor — ה Heh (Window)
Archetypal authority descends to the heart. Heh, the window, is the opening through which divine order becomes visible, allowing the Emperor’s structure to shine.

Path 16: 2 Chokmah ↔ 4 Chesed — The Hierophant — ו Vav (Nail, Hook)
The Nail binds tradition to expansion. Vav joins heaven and earth, symbolizing continuity; the Hierophant fastens wisdom into ritual and lineage.

Path 17: 3 Binah ↔ 6 Tiferet — The Lovers — ז Zayin (Sword)
The Sword of discernment unites opposites. Zayin cuts illusion, forcing choice; the Lovers’ union is born of separation overcome.

Path 18: 3 Binah ↔ 5 Geburah — The Chariot — ח Cheth (Fence, Enclosure)
Contained power advances. Cheth is the enclosure, a protective shell; the Chariot’s armor channels Binah’s discipline through Geburah’s fire.

Path 19: 4 Chesed ↔ 5 Geburah — Strength — ט Teth (Serpent)
Mercy grapples with Might and tames it. Teth, the serpent, symbolizes both danger and kundalini power; Strength shows courage to master instinct with love.

Path 20: 6 Tiferet ↔ 4 Chesed — The Hermit — י Yod (Hand)
The solar heart climbs to Jupiter’s wisdom. Yod, the hand, is the smallest letter, the seed of creation. The Hermit’s lantern is the focused spark of Yod.

Path 21: 7 Netzach ↔ 4 Chesed — Wheel of Fortune — כ Kaph (Palm of the Hand)
The palm turns the cycles: passion matures into benevolence. Kaph symbolizes grasp and potential, showing how fortune is held and released.

Path 22: 6 Tiferet ↔ 5 Geburah — Justice — ל Lamed (Ox-Goad)
The goad corrects course. Lamed, the ox-goad, trains and directs. Justice brings alignment, guiding the radiant heart with truth.

Path 23: 8 Hod ↔ 5 Geburah — The Hanged Man — מ Mem (Water)
Surrender reorients thought under the sword. Mem is water, fluid and reflective. The Hanged Man yields, entering the deep waters of sacrifice for insight.

Path 24: 6 Tiferet ↔ 7 Netzach — Death — נ Nun (Fish)
Desire is transformed. Nun, the fish, swims through the waters of change, shedding forms. Death teaches the cycle of endings feeding new life.

Path 25: 9 Yesod ↔ 6 Tiferet — Temperance — ס Samekh (Prop, Support)
The Archer’s path: dream refined into gold. Samekh supports and upholds — Temperance is the balancing prop, alchemy holding opposites steady.

Path 26: 8 Hod ↔ 6 Tiferet — The Devil — ע Ayin (Eye)
Clear seeing breaks glamor. Ayin is the eye, perception itself. The Devil challenges: what do you see, and what enslaves your vision?

Path 27: 7 Netzach ↔ 8 Hod — The Tower — פ Peh (Mouth)
The Mouth cries out and false structures fall. Peh is speech, power released; the Tower shatters illusion with a shout of truth.

Path 28: 9 Yesod ↔ 7 Netzach — The Star — צ Tzaddi (Hook, Fishing-Hook)
The hook draws dream toward desire’s green shore. Tzaddi pulls the seeker upward, like a fish caught in light; the Star heals with guiding hope.

Path 29: 10 Malkuth ↔ 7 Netzach — The Moon — ק Qoph (Back of the Head)
From the Kingdom to the tides. Qoph is the unconscious, the back-brain of dreams. The Moon’s path is mystery and intuition beneath surface awareness.

Path 30: 9 Yesod ↔ 8 Hod — The Sun — ר Resh (Head, Face)
Clarity pours from intellect into the dream-mirror (and back). Resh is the head or face, the shining countenance of the Sun illuminating all.

Path 31: 10 Malkuth ↔ 8 Hod — Judgment — ש Shin (Tooth, Fire)
Fire-tooth awakens the deadened mind. Shin is consuming flame and the trident letter; Judgment burns away the old and resurrects clarity.

Path 32: 10 Malkuth ↔ 9 Yesod — The Universe (World) — ת Tav (Cross, Mark, Seal)
The Seal of the Kingdom opens upward. Tav, the final letter, is the signature of completion, the stamp that turns matter into a doorway to the subtle.

Monday, August 18, 2025

An overview of the Major Arcana cards of the Tarot - Up the Tree of Life

Now this is the Fool climbing up the Tree of Life, rather than descending like in yesterday's. It’s like watching Jacob’s Ladder in reverse: from dust rising toward divine Light.


UPWARD ASCENT — Reintegration and Enlightenment

The Fool steps up into the world of wholeness through reanimation of the soul’s broader Self:

XXI – The World
Completion, wholeness, cosmic integration—this is where the Fool now stands, grounded in fullness.

XX – Judgement
A powerful call to rise again. Resurrection, spiritual awakening—ushering the Fool toward intention.

XIX – The Sun
Radiant clarity, joy, and vitality flood the path, illuminating the ascent.

XVIII – The Moon
Navigating illusion and intuition, the Fool learns to trust inner light in shadowy terrain.

XVII – The Star
Guided by cosmic healing and hope, the Fool reignites spiritual direction.


TRANSCENDING SHADOW — Turning Trials into Launchpads

From here, the Fool climbs through the underworld cards—but seen now as alchemical steps upward:

XVI – The Tower
Collapse clears the old; space opens for renewal.

XV – The Devil
Chains loosen. Integration of shadow frees the Soul.

XIV – Temperance
Opposites fuse into balance—alchemy becomes ascent.

XIII – Death
Ego falls away; transformation paves the way upward.

XII – The Hanged Man
Surrender inverts perception—giving clarity and freedom.

XI – Justice
Balance becomes harmony; the scales now guide, not punish.

X – Wheel of Fortune
Cycles become spiral stairs. Fate nudges upward.

IX – The Hermit
Inner wisdom becomes the light for each next step.

VIII – Strength
Gentle courage powers the ascent through difficult terrain.


RETURN TO THE CELLECTIAL WORLD — Reborn Self

At last, the Fool re-enters the Upper World, but now as integrated, initiated, sovereign self:

VII – The Chariot
Discipline becomes grace in motion; direction aligned with purpose.

VI – The Lovers
Union unfolds into divine integration, ethical harmony.

V – The Hierophant
Tradition becomes sacred heritage; teaching becomes spiritual lineage.

IV – The Emperor
Now, authority is righteous and ordered—aligned with cosmic law.

III – The Empress
Creative life springs abundant, nurtured by wisdom and form.

II – The High Priestess
Mysteries are not hidden but recognized from within.

I – The Magician
Will and consciousness meld with divine will—action becomes magic.

0 – The Fool
Re-emerges, not innocent, but transfigured—an eternal wanderer, leaping again into the infinite dance.


Summary by Section

  • UPWARD ASCENT: World → Star — completion, illumination, guidance

  • TRANSCENDING SHADOW: Tower → Strength — alchemy, release, wisdom

  • RETURN TO HIGHER SELF: Chariot → Fool — sovereignty, creative power, mystical integration

Sunday, August 17, 2025

An overview of the Major Arcana cards of the Tarot - Downward the Tree of Life

 🜁 UPPER WORLD — Call to Adventure, Formation of Self

The Fool begins as an innocent wanderer, stepping off the cliff into the Upper World. Here he meets teachers and forces that shape him: the Magician sparks his will, the High Priestess whispers of hidden mysteries, the Empress teaches growth, and the Emperor grants structure. Guided by the Hierophant’s rites and the challenge of choice with the Lovers, the Fool learns discipline and mastery with the Chariot. His self is formed.

0 – The Fool The call to adventure; innocence and potential

I – The Magician Activation of will and conscious power

II – The High Priestess Subconscious invitation; hidden knowledge

III – The Empress Nurturing, abundance, creative growth

IV – The Emperor Structure, stability, and authority

V – The Hierophant Tradition, initiation, spiritual learning

VI – The Lovers Union, duality, ethical choice

VII – The Chariot Discipline, mastery of forces, forward motion


🜃 UNDERWORLD — Descent, Trials, Death, Shadow Work

But the path dips into the Underworld. Here courage is tested through Strength, solitude through the Hermit, and fate’s cycles through the Wheel. Justice demands balance, the Hanged Man overturns perception, and Death strips away old forms. Temperance brings fragile harmony, the Devil tempts him to chain himself, and the Tower strikes, collapsing false structures. These are the trials of shadow and descent.

VIII – Strength Courage through gentleness; inner alchemy

IX – The Hermit Solitude, introspection, inner guidance

X – Wheel of Fortune Turning point, fate, karmic cycles

XI – Justice Moral reckoning, truth, balance

XII – The Hanged Man Surrender, sacrifice, altered perception

XIII – Death Transformation, endings, ego death

XIV – Temperance Synthesis, alchemical healing, patience

XV – The Devil Temptation, shadow integration, bondage

XVI – The Tower Sudden collapse, awakening, divine disruption


🜄 REWARD CYCLE — Resurrection, Illumination, Return with the Elixir

From this darkness the Fool rises into the Reward Cycle. The Star lights his way with healing hope, the Moon tests him with dreams and illusions, and the Sun dawns with clarity and joy. At last, Judgement calls him to rise renewed, no longer the same wanderer but transformed. The journey ends with the World—completion, wholeness, and the cosmic dance.

XVII – The Star Hope, spiritual guidance, cosmic healing

XVIII – The Moon Dreamscape, illusion, navigating the unknown

XIX – The Sun Joy, success, radiant clarity

XX – Judgement Resurrection, calling, spiritual awakening

XXI – The World Completion, wholeness, cosmic integration


Friday, August 15, 2025

Alan Watts Chillstep collection


I really enjoyed listening to this collection of Alan Watts talks blended with chillstep during my commutes, Alan is a perfect companion for both the ride to work and the journey home. The spacious pauses between his words gave the music room to breathe, making it as much a gentle wake-up as it was a soothing wind-down.

Alan Watts Chillstep collection


Sunday, January 19, 2014

On break till RSI completely healed

Just a heads up that I'll be silent but will be back, RSI is not improving just getting worse it seems so going back to the doc on monday. In the meantime everyone can watch Neon Genesis Evangelion (Neo On Gene(s) Sis Eva Angel Lion Ion), which ends in a 2 episode Zen Mindfuck of epic proportions that kicked me harder than any Alan Watts lecture could. Going to bed, I was thinking "I wish I woke up sooner, again" in a double meaning, spiritually and literally as my biorhythm had me going to bed at 4 at night and waking up way too late. Got called out of bed this morning at exactly 11.11, thanks universe for the confirmation! Don't know where Dedroidify is heading but I confess I'm surrendering to a spiritual symbolic worldview that I just can't seem to keep ignoring to have a fulfilled life.


I found out just now that the creator of the series says there is no meaning in it. That's funny because that's what people often are trying to convince me about life and I disagree on both counts. Here are the themes from the wiki page. I also think it's awesome that he doesn't tell us what to think but trolls us into finding our own answers as he distances himself from that process, which always comes across better than explaining the supposed meaning of a story. Like people trying to convince you what to believe, I usually disagree with those too! See you all soon.



Saturday, January 11, 2014

What if God got bored - Alan Watts

Joseph Campbell - The Hero with a Thousand Faces (1)

By entering and transforming the personal psyche, the surrounding culture, the life of the family, one's relational work, and other matters of life can be transformed too.

Since time out of mind, this has been understood as being best effected by journeying through the personal, cosmological, and equally vast spiritual realities.

By being challenged via the failings and fortunes one experiences there, one is marked as belonging to a force far greater, and one is changed ever after.

The idea to go forward, to seek wholeness without pausing to reconsider, debate, or procrastinate one more time - this is found too in the 20th century poet Louise Bogan's work. She writes in the same crisp vein about commencing the momentous journey. Her poem, entitled "The Daemon," refers to angel that each person on earth is believed to be born with, the one who guides the life and destiny of that child on earth. In the piece, she questions this greater soulful force about going forward in life. The daemon answers her quintessential question with the ancient answer:

It said, "Why not?"
It said, "Once more."


Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Ph. D., From the preface to the 2004 commemorative edition.