Don't know if Youtube translates the start of the Dutch video but it's pretty good as well. Skip to 04.24 for the New Disney bit (apparently I'm not able to embed it starting from there) or click here.
Jimmy Kimmel’s late-night show has been taken off the air by TV network ABC, in consultation with top executives at Disney. ABC and Disney are angry about something Kimmel said on his show about the murder of Charlie Kirk This clip is from season 2 of LUBACH. Watch the full episode on Videoland: https://v2.videoland.com/lubach-p_4629
LUBACH is a satirical news magazine show presented by Arjen Lubach. It features sharp monologues, in-depth stories, and playful sketches, as well as surprising guests, music, and stand-up comedy. It airs Monday through Thursday at 10:00 p.m. on RTL 4.
00:00 Jimmy Kimmel’s show has been cancelled
04:24 The New Disney
Next to John Michael Greer's Path's of Wisdom book, I also read this one and The Bride's Reception (aka Q.B.L.) by Lon Milo DuQuette, and now I'm going through Colin Low's Depth's of Beginning, Notes on Kaballah. Which one would I recommend you start with? Don't worry about it! You're a Chicken Qabalist!.
From the Youtube Channel: Lon Milo DuQuette Reads "The Chicken Qabalah of Rabbi Lamed Ben Clifford" Part 1 of 31
These videos were originally posted on Lon Milo Duquette's Facebook. I have sorted them by book, and made them easier to view here. These will never be monetized by me, and are only here to allow a larger audience to view them. If you enjoy them please considering purchasing the book on Amazon. Also be sure to check out his Facebook page, where he records a reading just about every day.
I bought the collected works of Promethea by Alan Moore, which is like a Qabalah primer, and unfortunately upon delivery it was made clear that book number four was no longer available. This book is apparently only available second hand now and at pretty high prices. So I had to read a downloaded version and ironically this book also handles Daath, the 'false Sephira'.
While trying to cross the abyss they mention "It's like a black hole", meanwhile I was listening to Alice in Chains on a whim. I had never really listened to their albums, so I decided to listen to the album Dirt while reading as I had the amazing song Would in my head before I started reading. When I got to the Black Hole part in the comic the song 'Down in a Hole' was playing.
Down in a hole, feeling so small
Down in a hole, losing my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied
At first I thought the song was called Sickman, which I thought was apt as I am suffering from chronic illness, but it appeared my album mp3 tags were mislabeled. The song Sickman played a track later and had these lyrics:
I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear
Daath, the so-called "false sephira" of the Tree of Life, is often described as a paradox. It is not a stable sphere like Chesed or Geburah but a kind of hollow gate: a place of knowledge without wisdom, a point where intellect severs itself from the living current of the Tree. It is the Abyss that divides the supernal triad above from the rest of the Tree.
To fall into Daath is not merely to stumble into error but to become sick in the soul. It is the fever of alienation, the madness of sterile intellect, the despair of being cut off from the flow of life. Qabalists sometimes speak of the Abyss as a place of annihilation. Crossed wrongly, it leads to delusion, madness, or spiritual death.
"Down in a Hole" speaks of isolation and entombment, of being buried away from light. "Sickman" is about corruption and decay, a body or mind turning against itself. Both are Abyss imagery: the hole is Daath as the pit of separation, while the sickness is Daath as pathology of the soul. The mislabeling was not just a tech error but a symbolic echo of what Daath represents, the sickness of false knowledge, the wound of disconnection.
In Promethea, Daath features a black hole, the circle or Pi 3.14... , between Sephira 3 Binah and Sephira 4 Chesed. The sephira that "is not there." It is a cosmic ulcer in the Tree. And yet, as in all myths, the wound is also a gate. The Abyss is terrifying because it exposes the fragility of our meaning-making, but it is also the threshold that must be crossed to move beyond.
The sync between "Sickman" and Daath reminds me that even error, even sickness, has a voice. Mislabeling becomes oracle. The Abyss is not avoided by ignoring it, but by naming it, enduring it, and walking through.
Daath is called Knowledge, and that name itself is a paradox. It is not book learning or accumulated facts, but experiential knowledge, gnosis that floods the soul with direct encounter. Without understanding or wisdom to balance it, this kind of raw knowing can become a trap. In the Tree, Daath sits at the crossing point between the supernal triad (Kether, Chokmah, Binah) and the lower sephirot. It is the "bridge" that is not really a bridge, the throat that does not breathe, the hole that mimics a gate.
In Promethea, Daath is associated with Pi, the infinite number that begins 3.14 and stretches on forever. Pi is the key to the circle. A perfect circle is never fully knowable, it requires an endless calculation. In this sense, Pi stands as the unbridgeable gap between the perfect world above and the imperfect reflections below. The supernal triad rests in the realm of the archetypal, the pure forms. The lower seven sephirot live in the realm of expression, manifestation, and limit.
Daath lies exactly on that line. To approach the Abyss is to try to cross from the finite to the infinite. To mistake Daath for a real sephira is to think you can close the circle perfectly, when in truth the calculation never ends. Pi shows us that the circle always slips beyond full containment. The supernals are the perfect circle; the lower sephirot are the broken or incomplete attempt to mirror it. Daath is the illusion that you can "solve" that gap with knowledge alone.
That is why it is sickness, and why it is also initiation. To encounter Daath is to meet the limit of human knowing. It shows that intellect alone cannot take you across the Abyss. Only when knowledge is surrendered into understanding and wisdom can the circle become whole again.
In the Qabalistic Tree of Life, the Suit of Pentacles belongs to Assiah, the World of Action. Here the element of Earth grounds the other worlds: Fire becomes work, Water becomes resources, Air becomes plans, and all descend into form. Pentacles are the suit of the body, material security, wealth, health, and the cultivation of steady growth.
Each numbered card corresponds to one of the Sephiroth, showing how Earth moves through the Tree: from the Ace in Kether (seed of manifestation) to the Ten in Malkuth (the fullness of the material cycle). The Court Cards embody Earth in human form — King, Queen, Knight, and Page/Princess — each rooted in their Sephirah.
Ace of Pentacles
Rider–Waite imagery: A divine hand extends a coin marked with a pentacle, floating above a garden path leading to mountains.
Sephira meaning: Earth fully embodied, prosperity made real and lasting.
Numerology: 10 — completion, cycle fulfilled, manifestation in matter.
Narrative: The seed has become a forest — stability and abundance for generations.
Court Cards of Pentacles
The Courts of Earth show how material energy takes human form. As always, they follow the family structure: King = Chokmah (Father), Queen = Binah (Mother), Knight/Prince = Tiferet (Son), Page/Princess = Malkuth (Daughter).
Page of Pentacles (Princess of Pentacles)
Rider–Waite imagery: A youth gazes at a pentacle he holds aloft, standing in fertile fields.
Card meaning: Curiosity, study, new opportunities, learning about work and resources.
Reversed meaning: Laziness, lack of focus, missed opportunities.
Elemental nature: Earth of Earth — groundedness at its purest.
Sephira: Malkuth — the daughter, anchoring matter into manifestation.
Knight of Pentacles (Prince of Pentacles)
Rider–Waite imagery: A knight sits upon a stationary horse, holding a pentacle carefully, gazing at the field before him.
Elemental nature: Air of Earth — careful thought shaping practical action.
Sephira: Tiferet — the son, balance and steady motion.
Queen of Pentacles
Rider–Waite imagery: A queen sits upon a lush throne, cradling a pentacle, surrounded by greenery and abundance.
Card meaning: Nurturing, practicality, prosperity, fertility, care for home and body.
Reversed meaning: Overindulgence, neglect, imbalance between care and self-care.
Elemental nature: Water of Earth — nourishment, fertility, grounded compassion.
Sephira: Binah — the mother, form and abundance given shape.
King of Pentacles (Knight in older decks)
Rider–Waite imagery: A king sits upon a richly decorated throne, scepter and pentacle in hand, vineyards and castles around him.
Card meaning: Wealth, mastery of resources, stability, wise stewardship.
Reversed meaning: Greed, stubbornness, materialism without spirit.
Elemental nature: Fire of Earth — generative power, mastery of the material.
Sephira: Chokmah — the father, dynamic force embodied as prosperity.
Closing Thought
The Pentacles of Assiah trace the journey of matter — from the Ace’s seed of manifestation to the Ten’s legacy of lasting abundance. The Courts show how Earth lives in us: Page as student of the body, Knight as steady worker, Queen as nurturer of resources, King as master of prosperity.
Together, they remind us that Earth is not just weight — it is fertility, craft, and stability, the ground on which every other element stands.
That completes the four elemental suits: Wands (Atziluth), Cups (Briah), Swords (Yetzirah), and Pentacles (Assiah).
Back in July, right as I returned to the path, I had a dream that felt like initiation. Only later did I see it was basically a Tarot spread laid out by my unconscious: Tower (defenses), Magician reversed (shadow of language), Hanged Man (different perspecitve), High Priestess (hidden devotion), Star (the muse), Lovers/Justice (the red-clad threshold), Chariot (overdrive and armor), and Five of Cups (regret).
It was the Grail lesson in miniature: missed chances aren’t failure, they are rehearsal. The dream showed me my shields, my hesitations, and the anima slipping away - and whispered: "Next time, be ready."
From the hearts and minds of Stephen King and Mike Flanagan comes THE LIFE OF CHUCK, the extraordinary story of an ordinary man. This unforgettable, genre-bending tale celebrates the life of Charles 'Chuck' Krantz as he experiences the wonder of love, the heartbreak of loss, and the multitudes contained in all of us.
I really enjoyed this movie, highly recommend it. It thawed some of the coldness that came with the hard years right out of me!
Today was a big day. Following Greer's Paths of Wisdom system I started my first day of the Middle pillar meditation after two months of alternating the lesser ritual of the pentagram in banishing and invoking mode every day. I will now be performing this ritual every day for at least a year. In the sequence of meditating on each of the 10 Sephiroth daily 4 times so 40 days, I have 11 days left of meditating on the Sephiroth before I start meditating deeply on Malkuth and when that phase is done which is supposed to take 3-5 days, I will be starting the actual pathwalking which I'm really excited for.
I'm excited to work on my next blog post for Vallis Gradalis, but unfortunately I've had a few weeks of some exhaustion and inflammation which prevented me from working on it. It's coming soon-ish!
Alchemy occupies a unique place in the collective psyche of humankind. Swiss psychiatrist and psychologist Jung discovered alchemy and devoted the remaining 30 years of his life to studying it, which he practically dug up from the dunghill of the past, for it was considered pseudoscience, a forgotten relic of history and despised field of investigation which he had suddenly revived.
Alchemy allows one to achieve wholeness through a reconnection with the unconscious. For Jung, the task of alchemy was and has always been psychological. The end product is not material in nature, but rather spiritual. Alchemy is the art of expanding consciousness, of self-realisation.
I can lift you up Your body is mostly blood Like water, a perfect flood Engulfing me again, no And I can tell you won't Remember my cracking bones The trauma we can't regrow Just as you leave again, no Will you levitate? Up where the angels inhabit Will you levitate? Where I won't reach you And we imitate A story of perfect days A ballad we fabricate As you forget your words again, no And is that all you need? To merely pretend to be Falling in love with me Forgetting the agony again, no Will you levitate? Up where the angels inhabit Will you levitate? Where I won't reach you Will you levitate? Up where my love doesn't matter Will you levitate? Where I won't reach you Will you levitate?
Sleep Token - The Night Does Not Belong to God
When you live, by daylight
With angels at your side
In order now, bestowed by
The light of the sunrise
And you remember everything
Only 'til the Sun recedes once again
And the night comes down like heaven
The whites of your eyes
Turns black in the low light
In turning divine
We tangle endlessly
Like lovers entwined
I know for the last time
You will not be mine
So give me the night, the night, the night
Angels have fascinated human consciousness since the beginning of time. The word angel derives from the Greek angelos, which is the default translation of the Biblical Hebrew term mal’ākh (literally “messenger”). The angel is a messenger between God and mankind.
Whether we talk about angels, daimons, djinns, fairies, or any other of such beings, they all hold something in common, despite their difference in appearance, namely, they are all archetypal images of the same fundamental pattern, the archetype of the ethereal being. These spirits coexist with us; they just exist at another level of reality.
As the archetypal image of the call, the angel initiates individuation, the journey towards wholeness of personality (the Self), as well theosis (union with God). Therefore, angels can help us both psychologically and spiritually. The integration of the angel archetype allows us to examine the nature of our essence or soul, the uniqueness that asks to be lived in each of us, and that unfolds itself during our lifetime. Thus, angels carry our true vocation, which is a calling, towards the meaning of our life.
The Magician is the most mysterious and fascinating of all archetypes. He is a person who has gained access to esoteric or occult (hidden) knowledge, bringing the spiritual to the material. Thus, he is an initiate of secret and hidden knowledge of all kinds. As the Emerald Tablet teaches us, “As above, so below, and as below, so above, to accomplish the marvels of the One work.”
The Magician is often the mentor or guide to his people, and even to the king. Psychologically, the Magician is the archetype of transformation, transforming old realities into new ones. He is the archetype of self-realisation par excellence. The Magician aids us in our lifelong task of attaining a higher level of consciousness, and of recognising that higher power which is greater than ourselves.
I could probably post a video each day from the amazing Eternalised channel, would that be too much? I'm not sure it can be!
The wounded healer refers to the capacity to be at home in the darkness of suffering and there to find germs of light and recovery. It is the archetype at the bottom of all genuine healing procedures. As long as we feel victimised, bitter and resentful towards our wound, and seek to escape from suffering it, we remain inescapably bound to it. This is neurotic suffering, as opposed to the authentic suffering of the wounded healer which is purified. The wound can destroy you, or it can wake you up. As Carl Jung wrote, "The doctor is effective only when he himself is affected. Only the wounded physician heals."
More than ten years have passed since I was diagnosed with chronic Lyme disease, and the road since has been long. My health collapsed, and for years I was off the path and silent here.
Now I have found my way back. A new space has opened: Vallis Gradalis. There I share how illness, partial recovery, Qabalah, dreams, and ritual led me again into the Grail quest, the seeker who falters, asks again, and learns through the journey itself.
Dedroidify will remain, while Vallis Gradalis is where I tell the story of returning to the path, and of the walk that continues.
In the Qabalistic Tree of Life, the Suit of Swords belongs to Yetzirah, the World of Formation. Here, Air takes the fiery inspiration of Atziluth and the watery imagination of Briah and gives them shape through thought, language, and pattern. Swords are the suit of the mind: reason, analysis, justice, conflict, and sometimes sorrow. They cut through illusion, but they can also wound.
Each numbered card corresponds to one of the Sephiroth, showing how the Air of Yetzirah manifests through the Tree: from the Ace in Kether (pure clarity) to the Ten in Malkuth (ruin and collapse). The Court Cards embody Air in human form — King, Queen, Knight, and Page/Princess — each carrying their own Sephirothic role.
Ace of Swords
Rider–Waite imagery: A hand emerges from the cloud, holding an upright sword crowned with wreaths of victory. Mountains rise in the distance.
Sephira meaning: The mind’s ruin embodied in matter, collapse at the cycle’s end.
Numerology: 10 — completion, end of cycle, destruction clearing space.
Narrative: The storm has struck its final blow — but light returns with the dawn.
Court Cards of Swords
Before reading the Courts, recall their “divine family”: King = Father (Chokmah), Queen = Mother (Binah), Knight/Prince = Son (Tiferet), Page/Princess = Daughter (Malkuth). Each expresses Air in a different mode.
Page of Swords (Princess of Swords)
Rider–Waite imagery: A youth stands with sword raised, wind swirling, ready to act, eyes alert.
Card meaning: Curiosity, vigilance, new ideas, youthful intellect.
Elemental nature: Water of Air — compassion joined with reason.
Sephira: Binah — the mother, form and discernment of Air.
King of Swords (Knight in older decks)
Rider–Waite imagery: A king sits firmly upon his throne, sword upright, surrounded by butterflies and clear skies.
Card meaning: Authority, justice, rational mastery, truth upheld.
Reversed meaning: Tyranny, manipulation, corruption of reason.
Elemental nature: Fire of Air — the decisive blaze of intellect.
Sephira: Chokmah — the father, pure outpouring of mental force.
Closing Thought
The Swords of Yetzirah trace the powers of Air through the Tree of Life — from the Ace’s clarity in Kether to the Ten’s collapse in Malkuth. They reveal how thought shapes reality, for better or worse: as insight, as conflict, or as sorrow. The Court Cards then show how Air walks in human form: Page as restless seeker, Knight as storming crusader, Queen as discerning judge, King as rational authority.
Together, they remind us that the sword is double-edged: it protects and clarifies, but also wounds when wielded without wisdom.
The Quest for the Holy Grail has fascinated the Western consciousness for a long time. It epitomises the true spirit of Western man and is, in many ways, the myth of Western civilisation. It is a perennial and timeless pattern that expresses fundamental concerns of the human condition.
The Holy Grail is a mysterious object guarded by a king in a hidden castle. It has been described as a cup, dish, or a magical stone that can provide healing powers, immortality, eternal youth, and unlimited nourishment. It represents the fulfilment of the highest spiritual potentialities in human consciousness, which endows the world with a symbolic and spiritual meaning. The quest for the Holy Grail is always more or less the same, it is the hero’s journey, at the end of which one obtains the “treasure hard to attain.” It is the search for that which makes life most meaningful.
Psychologically, the Holy Grail—like the philosophers' stone—is a symbol of the Self, the psychic totality and ultimate wholeness of the human being. The soul which represents the life principle, is that wondrous vessel which is the goal of the quest, whose final secret can never be revealed, but must ever remain hidden because its essence is a mystery.
